I despise January and February and spend those drawn out dreary months longing for spring and summer.
I adore springtime (not that we get much of it these days) and I look forward to Easter more than Christmas but over the last few years I am finding myself dipping into a kind of depression every summer. Obviously the horrendous heatwaves don't help. very few people enjoy roasting from the inside out but it's more than that for me. I'm finding the brightness of the day, let alone the heat just too overwhelming, I now need to wear sunglasses all the time and find sitting out in it unbearable and going anywhere during the summer day time just not enjoying at all. But as soon as evening falls I feel something lift/shift. I feel happier, more comfortable physically and just more at ease, I can't quite describe it but since I have entered my late 40's and now early 50's I crave something more settled and mellow seasonally, I look forward to September, October and November most of all and find this summer melancholic feeling goes by then and I start to feel human again.
Am I weird? Is this a normal feeling amongst some humans? Aren't we naturally supposed though to crave daylight, sunshine and vitamin d? All I long for are cosy rainy Autumnal evenings with fairy lights/candles, binge series, books and my hot water bottle.