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Im pretty sure im on my way out 🙁

287 replies

EachandEveryone · 27/03/2026 14:49

Ive been in hospital for nine weeks rushed in with massive infection. Every time the try to reduce the antibiotics or change them to oral I spike temperatures and they have to restart. I obviously have an untouchable infection,

I have squamous cell cancer with unknown origin. Its been three years two years of chemo kept it in place but now its growing in my lymph nodes. Surgery not possible as i would bleed too much. Immunotherapy was supposed tonsave me but Ive never really had. chance to give it a go due to my bad luck,, vascular surgery, then taking my shin skin off then colitus! Infeel cursed!

my consultant is willing to try immuno again but he honestly doesnt think my temp will stay down long enough.

the other option is home on profilactic antibiotics and a care package. I feel like this is the only option really. I miss my cats. I feel so well in myself its so unfair. What started off the size of a peanut is going to kill me and god knows when that will be. Judging by the whispering and my consultant telling me to start smoking again it must be soon.

I feel sick!

OP posts:
Dewdust · 05/06/2026 13:38

Hello, and I hope you're having a better time now. I see you as someone with a strong spirit, more than willing to live and with plenty to live for.
I really hope you get to those summer festivals!
Its a wonderful thing to look forward to.
Now that youve 'gone quiet' we can only hope good things are happening for you!

EachandEveryone · 10/06/2026 15:27

Im
im hospice at my mothers town they are very nice but don’t believe I have much longer. Im so upset the physio has told me I’ll never walk again and a harness is too painful for me . All I want is to beable to sit on a commode

OP posts:
MissMoneyFairy · 10/06/2026 15:35

I'm sorry to hear this, they need to make sure you are comfortable and pain free, I hope you are getting some great support from your family, friends and the staff there, it's been a difficult journey for you. Wishing you all the very best.

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Allisnotlost1 · 10/06/2026 15:54

EachandEveryone · 10/06/2026 15:27

Im
im hospice at my mothers town they are very nice but don’t believe I have much longer. Im so upset the physio has told me I’ll never walk again and a harness is too painful for me . All I want is to beable to sit on a commode

I’m so sorry to read this, thank you for taking the time to come back to update. I wish we could do something for you. 🫂

misscockerspaniel · 10/06/2026 15:55

Sending you all the love in the world and a huge unmumsnetty hug 💐

mumofoneAloneandwell · 10/06/2026 16:06

EachandEveryone · 10/06/2026 15:27

Im
im hospice at my mothers town they are very nice but don’t believe I have much longer. Im so upset the physio has told me I’ll never walk again and a harness is too painful for me . All I want is to beable to sit on a commode

Oh @EachandEveryone 🥺

How awful. When did you get transferred up north?

What can I say? You arent alone now, us mumsnet lot are here for whatever you want to share ❤️

thecatneuterer · 10/06/2026 16:16

I'm so sorry. Sending you love. And I'm sure all the cats you have helped are sending their healing purrs too x

Specialneedsnightmare · 10/06/2026 16:42

I'm so very sorry. I'm thinking of you and sending so much love. I hope you are comfortable at least. I know there are few words but I genuinely care xx

Laura95167 · 10/06/2026 16:48

EachandEveryone · 10/06/2026 15:27

Im
im hospice at my mothers town they are very nice but don’t believe I have much longer. Im so upset the physio has told me I’ll never walk again and a harness is too painful for me . All I want is to beable to sit on a commode

Im sorry to hear that and I hope they can come up with some solutions to be able to keep you comfy and mobile.

I hope your family and friends are filling your time with love and comfort and all the happiness possible.

Love and prayers.

OlderGlaswegianLivingInDevon · 10/06/2026 16:50

I have no words.

what about your cats ?
do you have a home lined up for them ?
otherwise can ' we ' help ?

ERthree · 10/06/2026 17:16

Such terrible news but i am glad you are surrounded by family. I really hope your pain is being well controlled💐

Enigma54 · 10/06/2026 17:34

@EachandEveryone I’m gutted for you, so sad. What happened to restarting immunotherapy? I really do hope your pain/ discomfort is being well managed? I have thought about you so much, these last few weeks. None of this is fair.

VariantHela · 10/06/2026 18:21

Thinking of you x

OlderGlaswegianLivingInDevon · 10/06/2026 18:26

That came across far too abruptly. I am sorry It wasn't meant that way.

What I meant was I have no words that will help in this awful and sad update.

If I can help re your cats then I will.

dontcallmelen · 10/06/2026 18:56

I am so very sorry @EachandEveryone on reading your update I hope you are as comfortable as you can be & surrounded by love from your family & friends biggest hugs across the ether you are in my thoughts 💕 x

Palimpa · 10/06/2026 19:05

Sorry to hear that OP. I hope that they have your pain covered and you find more ease and comfort. Xx

Lougle · 10/06/2026 19:20

@EachandEveryone I hope they are doing their best to make you comfortable. I'm sorry you're facing this situation. Lots of love to you.

Dewdust · 10/06/2026 19:34

Oh....the hospice!!

At least theyre suppossed to be nice to you there!

As far as I know you can eat as much icecream as you like because it makes no difference now!

i feel like saying it must be very difficult being young and stranded in a hospice!
perhaps the only consolation is that some of the musician folk who are also in spirit will hold a special concert just for you and your family members in spirit.
It seemed such a nice thing to wish for.
Many musical icons are already across the river.

So many people crossing over ...
Be kind to yourself while you are still here in this world.
Have you be given morphine yet?

My mother, who was absolutely against all drug use was very happily tripping on morphine given intravenously!

Afterwards I had a spiritual reading and was told my mother said.. " It was a very peaceful passing and a beautiful moment of instant recognition. "

( She got met by her dad and her mum who had died in childbirth).

But this is about you now.
I hope you have family visiting and kind nurses.
if you feel like tripping then morphine will oblige.

But youre not there yet and some people do come back out of hospices into the community.

I wish you happiness and peacefulness in the face of uncertainty.
If you go on to the next life its because heaven needs an angel and they have a job for you that only you can do!

If you stay here on earth, its because your presence is needed here.

WestwardHo1 · 10/06/2026 20:39

Oh god OP I'm so very sorry. Thinking of you. Big hugs xxx

I hope you are comfortable and being looked after.

500mileslong · 10/06/2026 20:44

Sending so much love EachandEveryone, many of us are thinking of you Flowers

PineapplePizzaz · 10/06/2026 20:47

Thinking of you ❤️

Mischance · 10/06/2026 21:49

I am hoping that you can be as comfortable as possible and that you are surrounded by good kind people. x.

Icedcoffeeforme · 10/06/2026 21:59

I’m so, so very sorry to hear that. I’m thinking of you 💐

PotatoLove · 10/06/2026 22:11

Sending love OP ❤️

blankcanvas3 · 10/06/2026 22:28

Thinking of you ❤️