... asking because i feel certain things that have happened within my life over the past few years have caused my confidence to get so low...Im just feeling so negative at the moment. & if i told anyone in real life about how I feel theyd just tell me to wise up!! Has anyone else ever felt like their confidence has just gone !!!
I feel like i struggle with meeting new people or making friends, and instantly feel like theyre not going to like me or stick around, so i dont feel there is any point in trying.. the last few years ive been so unhappy in my job, due to a group of women (within my age group, early 30's) who have basically excluded me from their 'group' ... things like, not involving me in conversation, talking & laughing about their nights out together which Ive never been invited to, after I returned a few months ago after maternity leave theyve never asked once how I was or have never once asked about my baby....Gossiping about other colleagues to me, saying hello/goodbye to other people but not to me, giving eachother 'looks' when ive've walked into the room... all of this type of behaviour has gone on for at least 2 to 3 years. Its really damaged my confidence because its a reminder of how I dont have any friends myself. How boring I must be to not have people around me..it literally feels like playground shite, thats why its so embarrassing...i have told my manager about everything, but she says shes not able to speak to them as theres no proper evidence..I feel so fucking pathetic. I feel like if I wasnt here anymore nobody would even notice...
During my maternity leave, i applied for another job, one that I genuinely feel like id love to do after going to a Careers fair. Ive recently got a start date so last month I handed in my notice, im so stressed about starting in this new job, im scared incase Im not going to fit in or be liked, the way im not in my current job.. I feel like my confidence is ruined and im using all of my strength to keep positive right now 😞