My MH has taken a dive of late, and I am struggling to keep a face on it. You can tell, because my house is messy, I stop eating properly, personal hygiene goes down the pan, my memory is worse than usual, and I am lacking patience with someone at work. I usually get told that I have the patience of a saint with other people.
Then I got a migraine. I don't get paid for sick days. I tried going to work this morning, but had to turn back. I feel bad about other people having to do my job, but it's horrible trying to work a manual job when you're vomiting at the same time. I tried to go again this afternoon, but got sent home. I do not feel safe driving at any point with a migraine (partly why I didn't try to get an appointment with a doctor), but live miles away from shops. Everything bar the vegetables is frozen. I ended up ordering a takeaway. I worry that people will say, "You are ill, so you should just be in bed", even though if I hadn't ordered food, I wouldn't have eaten. I feel bad that I can't look after my animals properly when I am ill (and I have to repair the fence again, as one of the dogs got out).
A return of a large item hasn't been collected, so that is sitting waiting.
I just want to curl up and sleep for a week, or until the black cloud has lifted.