Yes, i've changed my mind. I've been following this case since 2018/2019. I can't remember exactly, but whenever the news first broke. I'll be honest and say my knowledge certainly isn't as indepth as other posters, and most of my trial knowledge came from the Chester Standard. I am, however, a neonatal nurse, but not in UK
In the beginning, I, like everybody else, was absolutely horrified that all these poor babies had died. But I don't think I'm too different from the previous descriptions of Letby,
I worked lots of extra shifts when I was single and buying my first home, as I had no other commitments.
I'm socially awkward (later diagnosed ASD), and had comments regarding my communication skills while being assessed as a student nurse.
I've definitely had a few handover sheets (not medical records, and not 100s of them) in my work bag.
I've sent messages to my colleague to ask how babies are doing, and to pass on awful news if it happens.
I remember dates of significant events (asd). If a baby dies on my shift, I'll remember the date, and think about them on the anniversary etc
I'm just a couple of years older than Letby. She must be 100% innocent. I was sure of it. That obviously lacks any sort of critical thinking, but I just couldn't imagine myself, or any of my colleagues committing such crimes.
Even reading these threads i'm reminded of the "evidence", and for a lot of these events i. CAn explain them away. Quite often it's because I work in NICU and I'm aware of the day to day practices. For example, the insulin use and the fact the twice as many vials were ordered from pharmacy. Once opened vials must be used within 6 weeks. After 6 weeks they need to be returned to pharmacy and a new vial ordered. So even if only a few units were used, the whole vial will essentially "be used" and replaced. And if it's replaced with a new vial that's short dated, that new vial might also be returned to pharmacy and a new one ordered without having ever been opened. So ordering of twice as many vials of insulin does not prove that they actually used twice as much.
The statistics are clearly flawed. And anyone can have a bad cluster. I've had a few myself over the years. But only because I've happened to be rostered on to those particular shifts and as the most senior/experienced nurse I'd look after the sickest baby.
I was aware of Dr. Lee, and have read several of his papers over the years. He is a world renowned neonatologist. I fully appreciate what the expert panel have come up with. But it still seems a bit unlucky that the babies died. Often from simple causes... or some very rare causes (another cluster I suppose)
Overall, no longer 100% sure of innocence. But an unsafe conviction, and a possible exonerated due to that?