Okay, so this is an extremely privileged post. I am really sorry if this is a bit of a kick in the teeth to people living in very difficult times.
I order a new car and I am feeling extremely excited about it - it meets the needs of my family and it's lovely. It won't be ready to collect for a few months
I have realised, this is the first time in my recent adult life that I've felt any excitement?
I had terrible HG with my pregnancy time so didn't feel excited at all. Just relief and desperation for it to all be over! I was pregnant on my wedding day and was lucky to get photos where I didn't look close to death
I have come to realise I genuinely cannot say when the last time was that I felt ANY excitement
I have felt content. Which is logically far more stable an emotion
I know weirdly feel annoyed at myself for being excited
and keep reminding myself this will all end and it won't be exciting anymore so to just quit whilst I'm ahead