Yes yes I know another weather thread. And yes, I realise this sounds insane but I can't handle the weather in this country anymore. I'm an immigrant, have lived here for over a decade but it's increasingly getting to me. Always struggled with the winters but now it's affecting me year round. The grey and rain doesn't seem to end. Please don't tell me that it's better than 40 degrees and boiling hot. I'm not asking for that either! Just dry and a blue sky, that's all I want. Doesn't have to be warm. It is making me depressed and knowing I have to live like this for the rest of my life (or at least until the kids are grown up) is sending me into panic. There are times where I think through scenarios of what would be worse, leaving the country without my husband and children or killing myself. I check the weather back home or see pictures of my family in the garden and burst into tears.
I have tried the lamp, vitamin D supplements, antidepressants, a gratitude journal to value what I do have. Nothing works and every year it is getting worse. Has anyone found a solution? Learned to live with it? I'm looking out the window right now and it's making me feel so sick and hopeless.