I've been exactly one month in. The onboarding was chaotic for a myriad of reasons and it took me four weeks to finally fit at ease. I knew my role was a bit of a gamble but trusted that they'd at least let me try and test things. So far I haven't been given the tools to do it (my manager knows this).
Yesterday was a very eventful day. I was told fairly early in the morning that the business model I was going to focus on will be outsourced for all terms and purposes. Somebody would have to own that relationship, but I was told by my manager it wouldn't be me. Which does leave the question, and what exactly am I supposed to do within my working day?
I also met with a member of the c-suite and I more or less told her how I felt, and how I have failed to make an impact. It was agreed they'd reboot my role internally and change my title. My manager agreed to this, and even acknowledged that how they introduced me to the wider company/team was a mistake. He only has praise for the things I do.
I also happened to speak with a software vendor for a solution for our team, and within conversation it was clear that my team and company were too small for a role like mine and his software.
I genuinely don't know how to feel about his on one hand I think there are enough red flags and that I should just look for another job. I also feel like they might turn around and say that they're very sorry but the concept they hired me for didn't work. I don't want to give up though, but I feel like I've been set up for failure since day 1.
Thank you for reading my essay!