No need for replies, I just want to scream into the void that....

[WinkyTinky]

....at this very moment I should be in Ibiza 😭😭😭 I booked the flights on a little bit of a whim a few weeks ago, but then we've ended up not going. Instead I am in the shed and the kids are playing tennis in the rain in the swamp of a garden, just to stave off the boredom.
Nooooooooooo........ 😭

Thank you.

What happened?

The home situation is very tricky and it was just going to be me and the kids going away for two days, not DH. We did this a few months ago to get away from the awful tension in the house, but DH reacted badly and so I think my eldest felt it was best not to upset him again. There is a lot of background this, and although I think it's about time we stopped putting our lives on hold and sitting here in the house while DH is off around the country doing his own thing at every chance he gets, we still shouldn't leave him out. I may be wrong, I may be right, but we have stayed home pretty much to keep the peace....

Maybe have a realistic look at your situation/relationship and what it means for you and your children. after you scream, of course.

Are you safe? You need to think about the children and what impression you are giving them about relationships.

@Poddingtonpeace I am safe thank you. But I do need to get things moving in ending this marriage for the sake of my own sanity and to show my kids that this is not the way a marriage should be.
DH is by no means unaware of how I feels but seems to think I'll never do anything about it. I will when the time is right.