Own up! I've been searching for it for a solid two years and I can't find it anywhere.
I can't be arsed doing anything. I rarely tidy or clean, the laundry is only up to date because DH does most of it, I can't be bothered putting effort into mealplanning or cooking. I'm doing the minimum to keep my job ticking over, I have no hobbies, I rarely read, I don't have friends. I mostly just surf the net. Even my Netflix history is a list of half-watched stuff; I rarely finish anything.
I need to fix the house up to put it on the market. I need to stop leaving all the day to day stuff to DH. I need to sort out my eating and lose about 7 stone. I need to engage with life again instead of just waiting for bedtime. But everything is too much effort, physically and mentally.
I was much more functional till about two years ago, when my Lexapro seemed to stop working. I didn't realise for ages, just felt like crap. My GP put me on Prozac instead but I don't feel as good as I did when the Lexapro was working. I'm half wondering if it's a perimenopause thing, as I'm 44, and I'm definitely having other issues like brain fog, forgetfulness, sleeping issues and a permanent headache. So I should probably talk to the GP again.
Is there anything else I can do? I feel like getting out and getting some exercise would make me feel better but I can't bring myself to.
I feel like each day is a chore at this stage. There's no joy left.