My best friend is pregnant which is so exciting but for some reason it seems to have triggered some birth trauma again despite having been mostly ok since my v calm second birth three years ago. It's so weird.
I keep dreaming about my friend's delivery. In this nightmare today I was her birth partner (which I won't be in real life but she is a single mum so no DH) and in the dream the mat ward locked the doors and switched all the lights out and we couldn't find a doctor and she was panicking ans screaming.
I've just woken up drenched in sweat and so stressed.
Amazing how this stuff can be buried deep but pop right out at you in the night