I hate my body

[Lilpastry]

UGH just feeling really down :(

I am 4ft 10 and about 9 stone, so I'm not very overweight, but I'm bordering on overweight/slightly over and I just look so dumpy in everything.

I've resorted to baggy jumpers and leggings but I'm meeting a friend today for drinks. I tried 7 outfits on, everything just CLINGS to me. I carry weight all over but mostly lower belly, bum and thighs and face, and just generally have a puffy appearance, my neck is awful! I have about 4 red rings from the folds!

I'm awaiting blood test results for thyroid/hormones.

I was doing intermittent fasting. I lost 5lbs, but this week is pre-period week and I have endometriosis and IBS (constipation). I've not properly done the toilet in about 5 days now. My belly is swollen like I'm pregnant.

My sister is actually pregnant and for a laugh we compared bellies, and mine is like a basketball! I look like I'm 25 weeks 😪😪😪😪

Anyway, I've now got a floaty dress on, loose tights, boots and going to throw on a coat and just hide my body, be comfy and try and have a good day 🥲🥲🥲

If you're losing weight from your body but still have a big belly, get your ovaries scanned just in case. Otherwise, wear some Spanx type pants and enjoy your night.

Sounds like you'll look gorgeous, enjoy the time.

We can be so critical of our bodies.

Focus on health and happiness. That is so easy for me to say, I'm rubbish at times 🤣

But hope you have a lovely time. Your friend wants to see you for YOU.

Thanks for your replies ❤️ I'm on the bus now, going to meet my friend, so I made it out the house!

Yes, I know I'll have a ball when I'm with her.

@AHeadForHeights yeah, I think I have cysts or something. My lower abdomen just protrudes and looks swollen, almost like that horrible saying (but I lazily can't think of a better one) 'a spare tyre'. Except firm, a freshly blown up spare tyre 😆

I look back at photos from nights out when I know earlier that evening I had broken down about how awful I looked and fat I was… I now yearn for that body and realise I looked lovely and curvy but not fat…. now I’m 1.5 stone heavier and am fat wishing I’d accepted and enjoyed my previous shape.

I should mention I've been given laxido and anti fungal cream from the GP, as apparently I have an infected anal fissure and 'a lot of stool in there' just lovely...

No wonder I'm not feeling very attractive lol

@TeenLifeMum it's horrible when you look back and realise you looked bloody great but didn't know it at the time. You feel you should have appreciated it more! Thing is, in years to come you may look at photos of you now, and feel the same! So try and enjoy your body (says me👀)

@Lilpastry I’m trying… currently on a diet but that’s because I have a wardrobe of beautiful clothes and nothing fits.