I absolutely detest my new job.

[TheLightSideOfTheMoon]

Properly hate it.

I’m not a crier, but have cried every day for about four days.

There’s too many cooks. One manager wants something done a certain way, another manger says no, they want it done a different way.

And there’s several examples of this. I really can’t please everyone.

I have one person working under me who only wants to smoke. All they want to do is go out for cigarettes. Their record is about 5 hours out of the 8 hour shift. And management are fine with it. But if something they were supposed to do isn’t done I get the blame.

I’m supposed to be doing paperwork, but I only have access to a shared PC which is in use during my quiet periods.

I stay behind most days to do stuff. I get messages on my days off about work stuff.

I’m waiting for the manager of another job to get back to me but she’s on leave for another week so I have to wait.

I have to leave in 45 minutes and go there.

There’s also very little natural light in the building which I think is making my depression worse.

My heart is full of dread. I just can’t stand it.

Yes, I’m keeping Covid as a back up in case I need time off.

I feel shite. My office has no windows so I feel zapped of energy as soon as I come in.

Don’t rely on the one other job, apply for other things too.

I can tell I’m depressed because I’ve not even washed.

I’m normally really into skincare, hair care and nail care but today I look like I’ve rolled out of bed.

Probably because that’s pretty much what happened.

Agree with the temp idea. Lots of jobs coming up for the Christmas period.
Sorry you are going through this, been there many a time.

I would look about. Just put this job as a temp one on cv.

So let me get this straight- you’re working in an office with no windows and don’t even have your own laptop?!

That’s wild!

You are not being unreasonable!

As other posters have suggested I would apply to the supermarkets as temp staff over Christmas and use that time to reformulante a plan! (Although this depends on your outgoings!)

And agree with other posters- put on CV as « temp position » or « fixed term » or « parental leave cover »

Yes it’s a lie but 🤷‍♀️ are they gna find out no.

It’s not even an office. It’s an under stairs cupboard.

It actually feels really good to admit how crap it is. Pretending it’s not has exhausted me.

So, the interview was held in the offices at the front of the building. All nicely decorated with plush carpets, fresh coffee, a selection of tea bags, etc.

Then you go into the main part of the building and BOOM - shithole.

Are you actively job hunting? I don't enjoy my new job (although not to the extent you're not) and I'm hatching my escape plan! Helps me get through the day.

And yeah, no personal laptop. I have to bring my own from home and email the work to my work email address.

Yes, I’ve just applied for several jobs.

There’s very little out there.

I’ve even applied for factory work. I just need to get out. I’d take anything.

I atayed in a job I hated for a bit over a year simply to build up some savings. It was boredom and lack of any clarity around anything that was the issue in my case, rather than conflict

I wonder, is it possible to have a meeting with the managers to find some middle ground? If A says do one thing and B says do another, what if you get them together? Does your line of reporting mean you're answerable to both?
As for the colleague with smoke breaks, if they're reporting to you, then you're going to need to address it directly with them. If not, then it's trickier but their frequent absences mean tasks are not fulfilled/completed, and that is something for managers to address.

Ultimately, it depends on how much you can take, and how desperately you need the money. If there's the opportunity to move on, it's probably worthwhile doing that.

Can you email the two managers and say 'you said this, the other said that, can you agree and let me know outcome...'

We’re having a meeting on Tuesday. Maybe I can get some clarity then. If nothing else it might make things easier for the next person.

I had a job I hated once, not sure how long I was there, maybe six months. I left and got a stop/gap job at Sainsburys, did that for six months and then moved on

It got to the point where I just had to get out so took a job that allowed me to just do that

Once I'd handed my notice in at the problem job another manager came up to me and said I can't blame you for wanting to leave!

Op it sounds awful. As a practical first step - get some light! Go for a quick walk outside say every 90 minutes. I worked in a basement and had to start doing this and it made a big difference. Make sure at the very least that you are outside during your lunch break.

And stop working over your hours. Don't respond to work messages outside of work time.

Don't allow yourself to become part of the chaos that isn't your fault.

If I were you I would take a job anywhere else. Shops might be hiring extra workers for Christmas. I’d rather stack shelves than live in misery with a job making me ill. Or look for work you can do immediately such as dog walking/ cleaning / babysitting. When you feel that dread get out is best.

are you Harry Potter? Cupboard under the stairs deprived of facilities? The lack of computer, the smoker, the mixed messages from leadership, the unpaid overtime all make this a vile job

If two managers are telling you different things for each issue (as it arises before you get two answers), send them a shared email saying this is how I would like to progress on this part of the project can you both please confirm this is okay or let me know what you agree would be the best way.
And yes keep up with the applications. Good luck.

Agree with others on here, some good advise -

Send a shared email to managers asking them to clarify how they want to proceed.

Stop working overtime.

Tell Smoker that X has to be finished by lunch time, it may focus them more.

Go out for a brisk walk every so often (you could always take up smoking and go for frequent fag breaks )

Start looking at supermarkets/shops/venues etc now as they will all start advertising for Xmas staff.

I would leave before your probation is over so you only need to give a weeks notice. From what you’ve said it doesn’t sound like anything will change. I had a job that I hated, I kept going for 5 months, it was such a relief when I left. I immediately felt mentally better the second I handed my notice in.

Your choices boil down to leave immediately or stay for 1 year/ 18 months ( for your cv)

Don't do this. You'll run yourself into the ground and take a substantial amount of time to recover. It's crazy that the poster advising you to stay stayed herself and suffered, and is now telling you to. It's really old advice anyway; 12/18 months isn't a magic timeframe for CVs anymore.

I'm sorry you hate it so much. I'd work out how much you need to earn and see whether seasonal work with Royal Mail/supermarkets/etc would be enough in the short-term, to protect your mental health while you find something else.

All of these. Great idea to get both managers involved simultaneously so they can't contradict each other/you. Also

• Stop using your personal computer for office work. Tell these managers you need your own dedicated business equipment 100% allocated to you do you can do the job you are paid to do. I wonder whether you are leaving yourself open legally, doing official business on your personal equipment (depending on the type of work - eg regulatory issues)

• When you go get to interviews (to the part where you meet in person at the company premises), ask to see where you'd be working. I always did this to get an idea of the atmosphere I'd be spending 8hrs or more in, noise levels, logistics, natural light etc.

• Don't respond to out of hours queries especially to people who don't seem to value you.

I'm glad you're also looking at moving on as it already sounds an uphill battle. I'm sure your experience, qualifications and energies could better be utilised in a better organised setting. Good luck. 🌹