I started to read the thread earlier but found it so triggering I didn't get to the end. hence I can't sleep now 🙈
I had a medical termination very late, because my baby was so poorly and wouldn't have survived.
I'm always wondering what if? He had a few rare conditions and we were
reassured by all my doctors and consultants at a large children's hospital that my baby, in the likelihood he survived, would have been severely disabled and need round the clock care, or would pass away shortly after he was born.
I made my choice, but, we had a crazily strict timeframe. The doctors told me the legal implications of having any kind of abortion after 24/weeks was a no go, in any circumstances, no matter how poorly my baby was etc. So I gave birth to him at 23+6 days.
But, in a hospital, with pain relief, hormone drips, my husband. I can't describe the pain I still feel losing my son, but it was the right thing to do. I had to give birth exactly the same as if he were full term, dilate enough etc, had an epidural. SO..all my me, me, me, is building up to saying I can't imagine what that lady went through, on her own, with pills from the internet. But it makes me so, so thankful that I had so many wonderful midwives, consultants and family their for me. There aren't any winners in her story, and I know women that haven't bothered to see a midwife when they were pregnant throughout. I just feel awful sadness for her family and her. Right or wrong, desperate people take desperate measures I guess, and I've not lived a day in her shoes, let alone months experiencing what she did.