Last weekend I went on a (rare) night out and got far too drunk. Usually I don’t get into such a state but I could barely form a text message. I drunk texted my ex who I’ve recently broken up with and he was worried that I wouldn’t get home safe but my friend’s boyfriend gave me a lift back. My ex was parked outside mine when I was dropped off and he was fuming with me because I was so drunk and because I’d “ignored” him all day, until the texting.
I remember going into my house and the room spinning. I don’t remember taking my clothes off or many details of what happened. But he went from standing in my doorway saying that I shouldn’t have got into such a state, to then having sex with me. I remember being on top of him and him saying he was going to fuck me in the arse 🤦🏻♀️ (sorry tmi). I then remember him repeatedly fingering that, ahem, area which happened so fast I couldn’t stop it. I felt as though I was drifting in and out of sleep, but I remember kissing him and going down on him (whether he asked me to or not I really can’t remember). I was very aware that he didn’t have a condom and neither did I, so we stopped. I then remember laying on my side and him pushing his penis towards my bum and me not wanting it. I remember the pain and I remember him ejaculating. I also remember going to the bathroom afterwards and then falling asleep immediately after getting back into bed.
I woke up the next morning and he’d left for work. He was still sending me messages saying how annoyed he was that he’d not heard from me in days and then I drunk message him. But it didn’t stop him from having sex with me?
We broke up because we were arguing so much and he was borderline controlling and insecure.