Upset watching DD eat toast

[Overwhelmed4]

DD is so amazing. She has the biggest smile on her face from the moment she wakes up til the moment she goes to sleep. The sort of grin that makes her whole face light up.

When I see her like this I feel awful for bringing such a pure, joyful, amazing soul into this dreadful world. I worry so much about what her future will look like.

There are different triggers but the main one is global warming at the moment. I imagine her growing up on a planet that's barely habitable with hardship after hardship.

This morning she was shrieking with excitement at every piece of her toast, brandishing it and giggling as she was eating it. I couldn't stop the tears streaming down my face. I feel so guilty she has no idea what the world is really like.

She is 18 months so I should be out of the hyper hormonal first few months but I seem to feel worse about it every day. It's not all the time at all, but it doesn't take much for it to get triggered.

Can anyone relate or have advice to not feel like this?

Jesus Christ everyone calm down.
i totally understand- when you see the news etc

Hi OP. I wonder if you could try some DBT distress tolerance skills when you feel really overwhelmed. There are a few free apps which may help.
One is the STOP skill, it will take your distress down to a level where you may be able to regulate your emotions. There are also some skills you can learn to slow down the catastrophising and ruminating.
A really good DBT therapist will be able to give you the help you need.

Please see your GP - be honest with them.

yes, there are scary things in the world but there always have been. People are waking up to the climate emergency and taking steps to avoid a catastrophe. Both at an individual and political/ corporate level - it’s not all doom and gloom.

Your daughter sounds lovely and you sound like a very caring, kind mother. Take care of yourself and make sure you’re staying mentally well by having a check up with your doctor.