Iknowimbeinganarsebutineedarant ·
01/01/2023 16:57
Just had a visit from someone I know, they had a baby last year who was quite ill and in neonatal for a couple of months, everything is fine now thankfully and I fully supported her at the time.
I had a little girl a few years back who was in the same neonatal unit, she sadly died when she was a few weeks old.
It was hard being back at the hospital visiting, and in the same unit etc, but I did it for her.
Shes, obviously, delighted about her baby pulling through, but every single time I see her she starts on about it (I know I sound like a twat, believe me I know)
Oh he just loved us so much he pulled through
He chose us as his parents and fought to stay with us
Hes such a fighter and knew he had so much to live for
Hes so strong to have made it through all that
Our love brought him back
Etc etc.
I know it's not about me, and I change the subject when she starts on, but she always brings it back to how her baby is here due to love and being so strong.
It feels like a gut punch tbh, like I didn't love my beautiful little girl enough, or my daughter just didn't love me enough to pull through.
I have gently mentioned it a couple of times and she says "oh I don't mean it like that" and then carries on.
Its making me not want to see her anymore at this point because it is every time.
I'm probably jealous, bitter etc, but I do think she's being a bit insensitive too.
No real point to this, I just wanted a vent really.