Hard to condense what I mean in a title.
Basically, my life hasn't at all gone to plan! Mostly due to mental health struggles, triggered by trauma. I've struggled with life since I was eleven years old. I'm also just one of life's exceptionally sensitive souls, and easily overwhelmed by everyday things that 'normal' people seem better able to cope with. I've struggled with rubbish accommodation and low income for years. I'm self-employed, and live an alternative life, as can't cope with a lot of mainstream stuff. I'm not successful in the conventional sense. But as a result of all that, I've learnt to find my joy in the simple things - a walk along the beach at sunrise, a cup of tea consumed mindfully, watching butterflies etc. Brief periods of respite (which happens now and then) from the chronic anxiety bring unfettered joy!
So weirdly, I think I'm finding the current state of things (essentially society starting to collapse) less shocking. I've essentially been in training for it for years. I've lived a microcosm of such collapse, for a long time. I say this with caution, as I have huge empathy and sympathy for those who are not coping at all with things currently. I'm very worried about people struggling to stay warm and well fed etc. The climate crisis keeps me awake at night too. But, as my life has been so disappointing and disastrous in many ways for many years, a lot of the economic and societal stuff just feels like more of the same, in terms of the effect on me personally. I never really experienced the boom. I wonder if anyone else is experiencing something similar atm?