Was anyones else's mother like this?

[BeefCarvery]

My mother was so odd during my childhood. I remember her always moaning and whining and shouting. She was always asleep on the couch too. We had to walk on eggshells and she dictated everything. A friend basically asked me when we were about 10 why my mum was a bitch. I remember we used to go out and she'd look away and ignore us and play wanker games. I remember being woke up at 1am with her screaming and throwing our toys out and once when I was about 6 her temper was so bad she smashed a bottle and fainted. I was terrified of her. As an adult I married someone I didn't want to because I was too scared of her if I pulled out.

It's actually really normal for people who had abusive, chaotic, childhoods to not remember large chunks of it

I'm jealous of people with normal mums

Yes my mother was like this. She told us she regretted having kids. Basically abdonded myself aged 12 and siblings aged 10 and 5 to live her own life. Never told me she loved me or hugged. I could never ask her anything,never told her I got my period and had to use toilet paper and scrape together change I could find to buy the cheapest sanitary towels. My mother worked,we had a lovely home and car and she always had a very lovely appearance but we were neglected emotionally, mentally and physically.

I was lucky to meet my wonderful DH when I was 18 and we have three great kids and a lovely life. I am the complete opposite in how I am rearing my children.

I just grey rock her