Just a little handhold please

[blackheartsgirl]

My mum has oesphagus cancer. This comes exactly one year after I lost dh to colon cancer. She’s having a pet scan tomorrow to see how big the tumour is (they know it’s fairly big) and if it’s spread.

im in a mess, I can’t believe it. My heads all over the place.

im holding down a full time job, looking after 2 dc (also adult dd who has asd) I’ve got a heart condition, my house is an absolute MESS and I’m just fucking heartbroken. My poor mum, she looks so frail.

i just don’t know how to hold it together.

where do I start with the house, I can’t be bothered to do anything, chasing my tale, I’m. Not organised, i chuck dinner money at the kids, I ate chocolate in work for lunch because I ran out of bread and I was too tired and forgetful to get more.

I need to sort my shit out for the kids and for my mum .

I just want to scream tbh

Thank you for your prayers and thought. It’s much appreciated x

Thank you OP and lots of love and strength to you and your mum xx**

I’m sorry I don’t know why the stars have appeared I was looking for some flowers xx

Re: diet. Your mum is best to stick to soft textures (so easily mashed up with a fork) so that things don't get stuck. Anaemia can be common with this type of cancer, and can. E treated either with oral supplements or if her Haemaglobin and iron count are very low, she could have an iron infusion- this will take about 6 weeks for the peak effect.
Important to maintain her calorie intake, even if she hasn't lost weight, so plenty of cream, cheese and butter mixed into dishes to maximum calories without having to increase the volume of food she's taking in.