Things will never get back to normal for me because I saw things during lockdown that hav changed me.
I refer to the behaviour of the police. I saw at least 20 videos of British coppers beating and kicking people - actions that are illegal as well as unwarranted. I never dreamed in my worst nightmares that I would ever see OUR police act like that.
I also witnessed it first hand. I was going through my local park in my small friendly town where our police have always been civil and friendly. Two smart, slightly-built women in their 30s were just ahead of me. Police van drew up, four coppers jumped out, and marched up to the women. Two officers grabbed one of the women and dragged her onto the grass, and then pushed her to the ground, her face pushed into the mud under a bush. She was a tiny, slim little creature and one hulking great man seemed to be kneeling on her back whilst the other was also on top of her holding her down. It was completely and utterly inappropriate and over the top. Random people, with their kids or dogs, rushed forward and began to protest but the other 2 police stood in front of their collegues to stop people approaching or filming what their colleagues were doing, but about 3 or 4 people got their phones out and were filming or taking pics (I don't know).
I stood watching as they dragged the woman across the mud and the grass. She wasn't moving. They pulled her to her feet but she was limp like a rag doll. It was horrible to watch. They dragged her along and put her in the van and drove away.
I went all hot and cold, in the horrific realisation that the police had either changed or had always wanted to act like this and now got the chance, because of lockdown. It made me feel terrified, for her, for me, for all of us in the UK.
I later found out that they had leapt on and half-crushed that tiny, defenceless woman because they believed that she may have been partly responsible for a minor breach of the covid regulations a week before. In that, she had met with more than one other person in that park.
I will never, ever totally trust our town's police, or any police, ever again. If they can act like that over such a minor thing, they have shown themselves capable of anything.