Dreading the weekend, I just want DH to come home

[bloodywhitecat]

But won't be. He can't. I would give anything to have him bounce through the door, declaring "It's the freaking weekend baby!" just one more time. Going off to fetch the Friday night takeaway just one more time. Sitting here, with him next to me. But it is never going to happen. He died 12 days ago, here, peacefully at home. He finally looked like him again instead of being disfigured by the stroke and the pain of his cancer. I know he's at peace now but I miss him so much. This is my first weekend on my own, last week I took the babies (we foster) to my DD's for the weekend but this week I am staying here. Tomorrow I need to find something to wear to say our final goodbyes and I am dreading it.

Every time I read your posts I am moved and actually heartened by the love you have for your DH. Your strength and courage came through - everything you did for him, you fought for his care. Knowing that people can care like that makes the world seem that little bit less bleak.

I am so desperately sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine how strange and tough the days ahead will be.

I’m so, so sorry for your loss

I'm sorry. It's so shit and bloody unfair.

No words. 💐

Ah, fuck.
I am sure on the long term the fact that he was at home, and that the struggle is over will give you comfort. But not now. That’s unbelievably shit.
You, your husband and the foster kings sounded like such an awesome team. I don’t know how you go on. One breath at a time.

Oh, bloodywhitecat, I am so sorry. I have followed your posts, and have admired your courage all the way through Mr bloodywhitecat’s journey. My sincere condolences .

I'm so sorry for the loss of your husband. He sounds like a lovely man.
I can't begin to imagine your pain. Thinking of you. X

Love to you

Awww he sounds like he was an amazing and much loved person, sending you love and strength to keep going strong without him by your side xx

I am so sorry for your loss, he sounds lovely

Oh @bloodywhitecat I am so sorry to hear of your dhs passing. I think I knew from the title it would be you. I am glad to hear his passing was peaceful as I know from what you have said how awful things were.
Although we will not with you in person tomorrow, know all of us who have been with you virtually during this time will be with you in spirit

I am so, so sorry. I remember some of your posts about him and he sounded bloody marvellous. It's monumentally shit and unfair. My thoughts are with you.

So sorry for your loss 🌺

Thinking of you WhiteCat xxx

so so sorry bwc thinking of you tonight xx

I'm so sorry for your loss 😢

I will be thinking of you.❤️💐

Words fail me.
So very sorry
Much love (((xxx)))

So sorry.💐

💐

I have taken a sleeping tablet and come to bed, I still lay on 'my' side but tonight I have found his tie from our wedding and am sleeping with that. I went outside twice tonight and both times the owls were calling, he used to love hearing them. He even knocked up a barn owl box to try to encourage them.

I’m so so sorry for your loss. Your phrase about him bouncing through the Friday night door is so visual; I completely felt his joy and exuberance. You clearly loved and knew him beyond well.

Sending so much love and peace.

@bloodywhitecat

I have taken a sleeping tablet and come to bed, I still lay on 'my' side but tonight I have found his tie from our wedding and am sleeping with that. I went outside twice tonight and both times the owls were calling, he used to love hearing them. He even knocked up a barn owl box to try to encourage them.

❤️ I love to hear the owls too.

Sending lots of love. I hope my DH is hanging out with yours. I reckon they’d get on.

Oh I'm so sorry for your great loss.
I have followed your posts through his journey, it was so clear how much you loved him.

Such a hard place to be. Sending inadequate online hugs xx