I have joined a new team a year ago during lockdown, it's a quite nice team but one of the managers is quite toxic. She is meddling and always spreads undermining rumours about various people in our team, including me. She has made it clear she doesn't accept me and always acts in a way that puts me on the spot, especially during meetings, it's exhausting and is starting to impact my reputation a bit, which is a shame. She is not necessarily well liked but people try to stay on her good side because of how catty she is.
I've got two young kids in infant school who are naturally demanding of my time and energy. We have no help as dh's and my families live further away.
Life is a hamster wheel ride of home making, raising the kids and work. I enjoy all of these individually but combined I feel overwhelmed.
Right now, I just feel really uncomfortable at work with this trouble making manager. Saying that, ime there is always one like her in most teams, usually they act like this out of insecurity. I'm not sharp elbowed but come with a lot of credentials and experience, I just don't have the cut throat attitude to go with it so end up being picked on by these types of colleagues. Feeling utterly exhausted from it all.
Who else feels worn out and like they've lost their mojo?