Feel the need for a soundproof padded cell.

[Afonavon]

I need to scream, shout, rant and cry. I am holding it in aside from crying in the shower, and occasionally screaming when driving alone in the car.

Fucking hell, I need to let it all out before my head explodes and I give myself an ulcer.

Life is terrible and I am on the brink of asking for antidepressants, although I don’t have a chemical imbalance, just a shit-tonne of misery and worry about people close to me.

AAAAARRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
FUUUUUUUUUUUUCKING HEEEEEEEEEELL
BAAAAAAAAAAAASTARRRD BLOOOOOODY SHIIIIIIITING SHIIITE

I'm sorry that you've got to this. Can you perhaps say what has happened to leave you so depressed and unhappy? Is there anyone in real life you can talk to? If not please contact the Samaritans or a doctor.
Mumsnetters will I'm sure offer some more kind words soon.

Numerous friends and family are seriously ill, both physically and mentally. I don’t know how anyone can carry the pain, anxiety and dread.