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Can you remember how you felt when you found out Santa was not real?

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username30473 · 19/12/2021 17:51

Me and DH both come from backgrounds where we did not celebrate Christmas/believe in Santa.
We now have two young DC and we have started to celebrate Xmas over the last few years since they were born. Now the DC are becoming aware of Santa mostly from school. We have just gone along it with mainly due to me not wanting them to feel left out. DH however said last night he is abit concerned about when they find out and realise we have been lying to them. I just if you could remember finding out and how you felt?

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itssquidstella · 19/12/2021 19:40

I figured it out gradually starting in Y4 (aged 8) - Craig Hill said Father Christmas was actually his dad and although I told him he was absolutely wrong, it planted a seed and I scrutinised the handwriting on the presents very closely that year.

It was either that year or the next that I built a 'Father Christmas trap' out of coat hangers and bits of string and rigged it up between the wardrobe and the door so it would make a noise if anyone came into the room. My mum made me dismantle it before bed because he definitely wouldn't come if he thought he'd be discovered, which was pretty suspicious...

I didn't actually confront my mum about it until just before the next Christmas (when I was 10), although I definitely didn't believe by that point. I just said to her, "there's no such thing as Father Christmas, is there?" and she said "No, but don't spoil it for your brother."

No trauma, and it was nice to be in on the secret that year!

Whowhenwhy · 19/12/2021 19:44

I was 8 and was shocked when I heard Father Christmas say ‘bloody hell’ as he dropped my new bike down the stairs. He sounded like my dad! I knew at that moment and the magic was never the same.

bestdhever · 19/12/2021 19:47

Nope, I don't remember at all it was so gradual. But my mum is amazing at Christmas and could get me excited even at the age of 17 🤣💗

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jackiebenimble · 19/12/2021 19:53

My DS is 11 and only just fessed up he didnt
Believe any more. It was a lovely calm relaxed chat. I said how its still
Magical and now he is part of the secret and can enjoy helping keeping it going for his little siblings and cousins. Hes
Happy with that. Id say gradual realisation and no sadness or tears.

DuesToTheDirt · 19/12/2021 19:55

I can't remember ever believing he was real. It was just a fairy story.

AutumnAlmanack · 19/12/2021 19:55

I was 12 when I found out Father Christmas wasn't real. The first shock you get as you grow up really.

erinaceus · 19/12/2021 19:56

The seeds of doubt and confusion were sewn when my grandfather took on the role of Father Christmas at a school fete which my parents were involved in the organisation of. I went to the grotto, sat on his knee and so on, and didn't recognise him per se. When I quizzed him - back as grandad - later the same day over his whereabouts during the fete he made some implausible excuses. I think I knew what was going on by the following year. I would have been about five.

I don't remember feeling particularly bothered, the stocking ritual continued for years after.

CurlyhairedAssassin · 19/12/2021 19:57

There are clues so for most kids it isn't such a shock.

As others have said, the multiple crap and vastly differing FAther Christmas's at grottos are noticed by children from the age of 4, especially when they have dark hair poking out from under their beard, or a strong Scouse accent. And especially when they ask you what you want for Christmas and you think "What are you on about, I wrote you a long letter only a few weeks back telling you all this?"

It was always my mum's handwriting on the tags. PLus we sometimes got second hand presents I think (she denies this, but if you've got a modicum of intelligence, you can tell if set of something has already been used as the box is slightly tattier). I used to think that if it were real then all children would get new presents as they were supposed to be made by the elves. And actually, when I thought deeply about it, there were lots of things that the elves couldn't make in their lapland factory with their hammer and chisel, like Mister Frosty and a handheld Pacman game Grin

Plus, why was my mum so keen for us to ring things in the Argos catalogue - surely Father Christmas just KNEW what we wanted, by magic?

Also, why were there charity things saying that some children got nothing? In fact, my mum used to take us to the children's home sometimes with toys we'd outgrown and say that they didn't have much. I used to think that Father Christmas wouldn't forget them just because they were in a children's home, so what was going on? Sad

And, why, when you visited your friend's house across the road, did they have so much more or less than you? Did that mean that they had been naughtier or nicer than you?

There's the whole chimney thing....."he gets in by magic" just doesn't cut it after a while. Plus the "leave a mince pie and glass of sherry for Santa" really doesn't ring true when you know there are millions of mince pies for Santa to eat, and he'd be done for drink driving if he had to have all that sherry.

There was the Christmas that my dad came into our bedroom on Christmas Eve and sat staring at us to check we were asleep so we wouldn't realise he was Santa. Thing is, he didn't realise we were just lying still, and we heard all his huffing and puffing as he lugged the bagfuls of presents down from the loft. Grin

Little brains get to thinking that none of it makes sense.....it's not much of a surprise when kids are told the truth. But I do remember feeling annoyed with my mum and dad that they'd kept up the pretence that long and told me lies about the legitimate questions I asked her above.

Svara · 19/12/2021 19:59

@GCITC

Angry that I had been lied to.
Same, and mortified that I'd believed it.
Svara · 19/12/2021 20:01

We were never taught that the Father Christmases we saw were the real thing, so that didn't give it away.

CurlyhairedAssassin · 19/12/2021 20:01

And yes, there are ways to keep it special even when kids are older and know it's all pretence. We have a Rotarians Santa sleigh come round our streets fundraising every Christmas. Up till DSs were about 13 they used to like it when I shouted "shhhhh!!!! I think I can hear the Father Christmas sleigh!" and then we used to run up the road chasing it to give them donations for their collection. From around 14 onwards they were too lazy to do that. Grin

I also did the PNP Santa videos even after they'd stopped believing, making the messages and photos silly and funny. They enjoyed that. Not bothered now they're 18 and 15, like!

PowerhouseOfTheCell · 19/12/2021 20:07

My mum had to confess age 7/8 because I’d get so anxious and excited about it I’d vomit at the drop of a hat from about December 20th onwards [onwards] poor cow just wanted vomit free bedding

Ohyesiam · 19/12/2021 20:12

You might find your kids don’t believe in a literal sense. I didn’t.
I also never realised we were actually meant to believe it, I just thought it was a lovely story and tradition.
I was brought up with Bible stories and miracles, so I think I just put it in that category, Noah’s ark, water into wine, Father Christmas. All good.

We didn’t have a chimney, reindeers can’t fly , and I knew he couldn’t get round “ all the children in the world “ in a night , so to me it patently wasn’t “ true”, but I was delighted to engage with it.
I totally loved it, always said stockings were the best bit Christmas, so it certainly didn’t ruin any magic.
I can’t be the only one.

jesusmaryjosephandtheweedonkey · 19/12/2021 20:24

Relief that it wasn't because I was naughty that I never got what was at the top of my list.

BiBabbles · 19/12/2021 20:38

I remember seeing my parents carrying the presents down the hall by peeking out my bedroom door after hearing noises when I was very little, not yet school age, and not feeling any surprise. It was more like 'huh' and went back to bed once reassured it was just them walking around. It was little different than other fairytales I'd been told so I'm not sure whether I ever truly believed.

I wasn't allowed to talk about this one though - my mother was obsessed with the perfect Christmas and even though Santa only brought one present, she would threaten we wouldn't get anything if we said we didn't believe, non-believers don't get any presents (what we would get depended on how angry she was). That bothered me far more than the lying, that her idea of what Christmas and us should be mattered the most and everyone else, including the adults around us, went along with it.

Mankyfruitbowl · 19/12/2021 20:45

I remember feeling relieved when I found out. I'd suspected for a while he wasn't real, but wasn't sure. My biggest worry was that I'd reach adulthood and parenthood never having found out for sure, so I wouldn't know whether to buy presents for my future kids! Grin

I can't remember how old I was, but I was just relieved to find out for definite (from my mum).

CouncilHousedAndViolentBaby · 19/12/2021 20:54

I remember the exact moment haha I was about 6 living in a DV refuge so the room was really small and i noticed my presents in the corner addressed to me from Santa and recognised my ma's handwriting🤣 That's when I clicked but I didn't mention it to her lol

MrsPelligrinoPetrichor · 19/12/2021 20:57

I was born in a country where FC wasn't celebrated as a real person and NY was celebrated more than Xmas. When we moved back to the UK I was terrified that a man might come down the chimney and get me in the middle of the night, so my folks very quickly told me straightGrin We've never told D's FC was real as to is that's not what Xmas is about.

amusedbush · 19/12/2021 20:59

Nope, no memory of it. My mum says when I was around 5 I started asking things like ‘how does Santa get down the chimney if we don’t have a fire?’ and she fobbed me off by saying he had a magic key for the front door, but it didn’t last. I asked her flat-out when I was 5 or 6 and she told me the truth.

Stumpfest · 19/12/2021 21:01

I don't remember my age, but I remember saying to my mum that i knew santa wasn't real. She smirked and said "oh well, those who don't believe don't get presents from him". I quickly back tracked and played along after that and didn't spoil it for my younger siblings.

Legoisthebest · 19/12/2021 21:01

But he was a real person a long long time ago.
St Nicholas - the patron saint of children was a real person.

Scarby9 · 19/12/2021 21:02

No, but I can remember my brother and I knowing Santa wasn't real but agreeing not to say anything because it might upset our parents!

floatinginmyhomie · 19/12/2021 21:19

I was about 8. I asked my mum to tell me the truth and she said that he wasn’t real. It really upset me.

JesusSufferingFuck22 · 19/12/2021 21:40

My older brother told me and then showed me where the unwrapped presents were. I was 5. I was a bit deflated but still excited about Christmas and getting presents...no matter who they were from!

JesusSufferingFuck22 · 19/12/2021 21:41

It also made sense. I was always supposedly questioning about Santa being real🤷‍♀️

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