Why am I feeling homesick at home??

[StormInAGinGlass]

I can't seem to stop this horrible homesickness feeling whilst I'm actually at home or around family etc nothing seems to make it better.

I don't know why I feel like this or how to make it better but it's this lump in my throat, pit of my stomach feeling that won't go away.

I've been to visit parents, family etc. Things are ok at home with my partner, I have a couple of friends and nothing has changed with them. I just feel very very strange, sort of lonely, homesick is the best way of describing it.

Has anyone else ever felt like this and how did it go away? I've tried talkjng to my partner about it but he seems to think it's because we have things on the house to sort out. I'm not convinced it's that.

I do feel like I don't belong anywhere really, the only place I think I might want to be is my house where I lived when I first started work after uni. I lived there mainly by myself for a long time and I loved it. I feel like I should want to be at my childhood home, and even though I don't want to lose that it feels very different now.

I don't feel any better. A few things help temporarily, but it's more a distraction and it's still there as a nagging dull tug.

I honestly feel all over the place a lot of the time though. When I'm at work, in social situations or needed by kids or my mum for appointments etc I'm calm and logical, sociable etc. In between times I find it very hard to relax, distracted, anxious, unsettled and just generally stressed. My friends would never know.

I know what you mean as sometimes I get this too but with DP and my parents. I think it is strangely a very close feeling to 'love' and you could be worried about losing specific things/ people in your life?

@JulyDreams definitely, that does make a lot of sense