I don’t want to be plain and dumpy/fat and frumpy anymore

[FuckUcuntychops]

But I don’t know how to change. I have mental health issues, confidence and self esteem is in the toilet and I’m fat, fat, fat.
I look good in literally nothing.
I fail at diets EVERY FUCKING TIME. I hate exercise and struggle with pain and niggling injuries.
I day dream about looking fabulous with gorgeously styled hair and immaculate makeup, floaty summer dresses and pretty heels, being slim and content and happy. Then I look in the mirror and Trunchball looks back at me. FUCK!
Can anyone help me with tips and advice for changing my mindset? I eat everything in sight and hate myself for it. I just want to cry when I see my face/body. How the fuck did I become this person???!! 😑😑😑

You can't hate yourself thin. All you do is hurt yourself and create a wound you must then heal with food.

You must be a friend to yourself. Look after yourself as you would a beloved child. Offer yourself nourishing, healthful foods. Celebrate your victories. Be kind.

What I mean to say in particular here is - people usually think of the self-hatred as being what comes after a binge. Thinking of the cycle as binge -> hatred is an error. The cycle actually goes hatred -> binge , so stopping it at the hatred part is more effective.

Overeaters anonymous has online meetings. Maybe that’s a place to start.
Be kind to yourself as well. Would you want a friend to think this about themselves?

We all.have days like those, where we over eat and think why did I do.that?! Please don't be sad. Love yourself no matter what. Tomorrow is a new day. As long as you squeeze in some veggies, fruit,water and a walk you're doing great.