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Azaylia Cain

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LetsGoChamp · 28/03/2021 21:23

I can’t stop thinking about this poor little girl. My heart hurts for her family. I know she’s not the only child fighting a life threatening illness but she’s all I’ve thought about today.

Sorry if this post upsets anybody that is familiar with this little girl.

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EnglishRain · 10/04/2021 17:46

I just watched their stories and wish I hadn't. Their poor baby. My DD is 8 months old too. I can't imagine what they are going through, but my heart is shattering for them. To be watching your poor baby deteriorating so rapidly must be horrendous. The world is utterly cruel. It's times like this where I just think why why why and how can things like this happen? Sad

ISpeakJive · 10/04/2021 18:17

I am also feeling incredibly emotional about all of this. I know she's not the only child going through this terrible illness but she is so little and was diagnosed when she was only two months old.
I think reading about her journey from her parents has made me incredibly emotional. Its truly heartbreaking 😭

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LetsGoChamp · 10/04/2021 19:21

I feel so grateful to have you all to talk to about this. I’m so glad I started this thread.

@MrsDSalvatore I feel the same as you. I express how sad it is in real life and I know people care but they want to avoid it almost so that they too don’t get upset. I feel so emotionally attached after watching them all and having a son who is not too much older.

I’ve watched the new stories Safiya posted and my whole heart broke. Azaylia looks so tired and ready, but she’s still fighting. Seeing Ashley so broken after watching him be so strong for so long has really got me, and so I’ve sat in tears for quite some time just hugging my little boy.

The world can be so f*cking horrible but I’m so grateful she was born to such loving parents who have devoted every second of her life to giving her every chance they could. They are showing her a lifetimes worth of love in such a short cruel amount of time.

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OllietheOwl · 10/04/2021 19:30

I’m also another mum who has been finding this story incredibly hard to come to terms with, even though I don’t know them personally. I have a son who is a few months older than Azaylia and watching her videos, hitting milestones etc all felt very real to me. I couldn’t stop crying on Friday after reading their update and have been checking back almost too often to see how they are getting on.
The latest videos are simply heartbreaking. I was trying to understand whether Azaylia is feeling the effects of the painkillers - Ashley said on a previous video they asked to take her off them as she wasn’t “with it”. I suspect very sadly they now don’t have a choice as to leave her without pain relief but with all her faculties would just be too much for her poor little body.
I just keep imagining what they’re doing at this moment in time. It doesn’t bear thinking about.

Forevercurious · 10/04/2021 19:46

I am so glad I have found this thread and others who are feeling the same. My little boy is a bit older than Azaylia but every time I’ve looked at him today I just want to cry for them and I have cried many times watching their videos and updates. I cannot imagine the torture they are going through, poor Azaylia looks exhausted. She’s fought so bravely her whole little life. The whole situation is just heartbreaking.

ChocBeforeCock · 10/04/2021 19:50

I’ve been in tears about this and I don’t cry easily. That poor little girl. The way Ashley is just holding her, kissing her repeatedly in the latest videos is heartbreaking.

Troyhelena · 10/04/2021 19:52

Part of me wants to block the accounts because the content upsets me too much. But another part of me wants to see that beautiful little girl being looked after by her lovely parents

C305 · 10/04/2021 20:07

I'm so pleased I've found this thread too, it's hard to explain to people irl that you're so upset about someone you don't know- I guess when you have little ones, especially a similar age, it's just impossible not to draw parallels. Their latest stories were just devastating to watch, you could just see the sheer pain that they are all in & it's just heartbreaking. That poor, poor family😢 I hope this time can be as peaceful as possible for them.

nuttyslackster · 10/04/2021 20:08

Poor little mite. I have also found following this story incredibly sad and emotional. Just horrendous for the parents and seeing them at the stage of acceptance that there's nothing more they can do, when they have fought so hard, is really heartbreaking. I do hope they go on to have a happy life together and perhaps have another child at some point as they seem like fantastic parents.

MrsDSalvatore · 10/04/2021 20:10

@LetsGoChamp I'm so thankful you started this thread too. I've tried talking about it in RL but am met with alot of "oh please don't tell me it's too upsetting" which I fully understand, it is extremely upsetting but I just cant seem to stop myself thinking about her and them.

@OllietheOwl I'm the same, constantly wondering what's going on and anticipating the worst.

I'm so thankful she is being shown as much love as she deserves and hope the little time she has left is filled with pure happiness. She really has captured the hearts of so many people.

I'm so glad others feel the same, it makes me feel a little less insane.
It really does put things into perspective of what matters and what doesn't. Can't wait to get home from work and hug my little ones so tight.

Wingingthis · 10/04/2021 20:14

So glad I’ve found this thread as I also have been an emotional wreck the last few days, I’ve never felt like this about someone I don’t know. I also have a baby who is 11 mo so not too much older than Azalyia so perhaps that’s why it’s effected me so much, as mentioned above.
I truly believed she’d get better, the latest stories on Safiyya’s account are so upsetting but yet I can’t stop checking for an update. I can’t imagine what they’re going through :( and i don’t want to even try to. The absolute worst nightmare that could ever happen.

Wingingthis · 10/04/2021 20:16

And yes I too felt like I was going a bit mad for getting this upset. I can’t stop thinking about her or checking for updates. It’s consuming all my mind! Poor little darling 🤍

spidermomma · 10/04/2021 20:22

This really kills me

At first I was jealous of them been able to give her cancer a brilliant fight as iv 2 children with a disease we don't have a fight for so their dieing....
but now I feel their pain and heartache and every time I open the news on my mobile i cry. I can't stop it breaks me knowing their going through the same as myself and they fought so hard now that is just it ?
the world is such an awfully cruel place to take such beautiful baby's from us who don't deserve to be taken, she is super beautiful and brave. She has made a difference to her families life's but also the world to how strong she was x

littlepattilou · 10/04/2021 20:23

YANBU. Very sad news. I hope she makes it. Sad

Fullofthejoysofspring · 10/04/2021 20:26

Heartbreaking.

MrsDSalvatore · 10/04/2021 20:27

@spidermomma I'm so so sorry to hear about your 2 children, that must be so hard for you to deal with. Its heartbreaking, I cant imagine as a mother how it must feel. Sending so much love and strength to you 💕

Life is far too cruel, babies and kids are just so innocent and precious and just don't deserve to suffer anyway whatsoever. I wish I could just wave a magic wand and heal all illnesses, pain and suffering. Ridiculous
notion I know, but I truly feel so useless not being able to do anything

ipseity · 10/04/2021 20:28

I’ve been on and off crying all day too. I keep returning to look at the photos Ashley posted of her last bath in the hospital... she is so, so beautiful and brave. ❤️

AlfieandAnnieRose · 10/04/2021 20:30

It’s so sad to see the change in Azaylia from yesterday, I can’t stop thinking of them all ☹️

There’s a Facebook page her grandma set up a while ago, on it people have decided to light a candle for Azaylia tonight. There’s so many people touched by her story, she’s a true fighter

withpeaceandlove · 10/04/2021 20:32

I've been trying not to think about it because it brings me to tears but I just can't get her out of my head. She has so much life & light in her she truly is a special little girl. Ashley and Safiyya are unbelievable parents & she is so lucky to have them, I just hope that they can heal from this somehow.
Safiyya's updates on her story are really hard to watch but it's also comforting to know she's being showered with love and that they're making the most of these moments.
The world is so cruel. Sending love to them and anyone else effected by this evil diseaseThanks

ItsMeMarg · 10/04/2021 20:32

I've blocked the accounts because it almost feels like I'm being intrusive? I feel uncomfortable with what they're sharing on Instagram - she really looks so poorly.

However it's their choice of course to post as they wish and my choice to decide I feel a bit 'ghoulish' in viewing it.

My heart goes out to them and this lovely little girl - but that goes without saying really.

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MrsDSalvatore · 10/04/2021 20:44

@ItsMeMarg Yes, the latest videos were really hard hitting. You can visibly see how exhausted Azaylia is. It's not something I'd personally post but I'm guessing it could be their way of coping, trying to keep some form of normality to prevent them from breaking down completely. I also thought that they could possibly feel like they needed to share after all the love and support they have received from the public, but I really hope that isn't the case.

Sounds silly but I'm just holding out for a miracle of some sort. Someone somewhere to have the answer to cure her

Justanticipating · 10/04/2021 20:45

I'm exactly the same. My little girl is 1, and it just feels so close to home. My bf tells me to stop reading and watching, but I can't help it, maybe it's the mother in me just wanting to make her she's OK. I'm in absolute tears.The videos of her today has really broken me. I too might need to block for a bit.
I'm really glad they've got a nice cast done, that's a really lovely keepsake.

JLR12 · 10/04/2021 20:52

This has just broken my heart, the same as you all I don't know this family apart from through social media but I can't get this precious baby and her parents out of mind. I really do pray for a miracle for them but after the videos today it looks like she is really struggling now. They really are amazing parents. Xx

ChocBeforeCock · 10/04/2021 20:56

I think it is really not for us to judge what they share. If it helps them to do so then there’s no reason they shouldn’t. It is upsetting to watch, and no one could blame those who choose not to look at any more of their content at the moment Flowers
However that is a different thing to saying they shouldn’t post it in the first place, they just do what’s right for them in these dark dark days