What is happening....

[whiteflowerss]

Im 35, "mild" depression im on 20mg pills. I have been avoiding work (even though i work from home) today im due to start at 9am and just cant bear the thought of it.

I feel like such a let down, in my thirties, depression taking over, no career as such just a job and even that im struggling with.

Is there anyone else in this boat?

I feel so low

. Have you spoken to your GP about possibly upping your dosage.
How long have you been on them. From what I remember it takes around 6 weeks for them to take effect. If you'd have felt better straight away that would have meant that they definitely not suitable for you as if would have been a case of the Placibo effect or mind over matter.
Please do not feel like a let down. You didn't choose depression.
Depression chose you.
Ill give this a few bumps for you.

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