Do you ever wish that you believed in God?

[TheYearOfSmallThings]

Like many other people, life has been kicking me repeatedly in the nuts for the last year. I won't bore you with the details, but I have lost security in every area of my life, and each time I think things are going to improve, they get worse.

I don't believe in God, and I've never envied those who do. But now...it would be so comforting to have some faith that there is some overall plan, and that all will be well, if only in the afterlife. I know some people who fully believe in God and I know they find it a huge support. It's obviously not something you can choose to believe, but if I could, I would be very tempted right now.

Am I alone in this, or do my fellow atheists have similar thoughts?

I was raised in a staunchly atheist family (in a pretty dictatorial way I would say tbh) but I am in the not sure camp as an adult.

Just before I go to sleep I often have a little chat with God. Whether he listens or not I don't know, and I'm under no real illusions that it changes anything, but it is comforting to me.

I don't talk to anyone else at all about this, even my DH doesn't know I do it. He'd think I'd lost the plot.

turtletattle yes, I absolutely agree with you. I knew losing my dogs would be hard but I am floored by how difficult it has been. I'm struggling to accept that they're absolutely gone forever.