Thank you for new thread, am mainly lurking 
Am massively proud of myself to have made it this far. Not been dry for longer than 5 days since my last pregnancy in 2017.
It's DH birthday on 27th so we decided in the beginning to do until then, share a bottle of champagne or red wine on his birthday and then do the rest of January.
I feel really torn! Half of me can't wait for the 27th and in fact is really worried I won't make this weekend (because what's the point if we are drinking on Wednesday - we don't usually drink in the week) and the other half of me thinks I don't want to drink on 27th and to see how much longer I can do past January!
So silly - how can I feel both of those things! For context I am a heavy drinker - only drink Fri-Sun but polish off 30ish units in those 3 days. Therefore something needs to change. I have found abstinence has given me a mental break from the constant negative thoughts about myself on a Monday/Tuesday about how much I've drunk and I must do better the next weekend and then I just do the same thing again.. etc etc....
It's been much easier that's it's off the table but I'm still struggling at 5pm on my 'drinking days' until my witching hour (s) is over.
I think my plan is to see how February goes and if I revert quickly back to old ways then I think dry in the home may be the better way forward for now.
February 17th is the first anniversary of my mums sudden death so I think it might be best if I attempt at least mainly dry Feb in the run up to that as I'm sleeping better and feel less stressed.
Hmmm lots to ponder....
Well done all however you've done up until now!