I guess I'm just looking for a grip by writing this thread.
Every ten years throughout my life, a crisis has happened. When I was born, I was put into the care system after being removed from my birth mother. When I was 10/11 I had a sort of emotional "breakdown" due to being bullied by a teacher.
At 20/21 I was involved with a guy at uni who ended up being sectioned.
At 30/31 my partner passed away after a short but traumatic illness.
I'm 40 in two months time, and am starting to worry. I fear the next "crisis" may have something to do with trying for a second child, which we're planning.
Please tell me I'm being a superstitious idiot!!