I am getting very nervous about the borders closing. I’m worried about people panic buying and trying not to join in

I’m also fed up with some Instagramers who have left London, who say it is within the rules, it isn’t. If you do go home, stop bloody posting.
I have tried so hard to not go on antidepressants, but if we go into tier 4/ lockdown, I will have too. I feel no joy in anything

. I even let my teenagers wrap their own presents. I have no will to live

. Everything feels so flat, my chest is tight and want to cry.
And Boris being on tv every night will tip me over the edge of a cliff