Can we have a why we're awake thread, please?

[iamjackslaceratednipples]

14mo is I'm pretty sure staying awake in protest and sheer bloody mindedness because I don't want him to pinch my nipples while he feeds. I have a raft of various breastfeeding woes at the moment anyway so feeding is sore generally.

I'm not a sweary or angry person but I want to fucking scream. I'm exhausted. He's exhausted. My nipples are in fucking agony.

At least the birds are starting now. Thankful I'll be able to get up soon. Don't like to wake dh early as he's got a lot on at work. 50 mins til the alarm.

@Olivetreekeeper

Woke up to a loud noise, looked outside and saw. Avan with its hazards flashing and our security light went off so panicked about dog snatchers (totally anxious about this at the moment). Ran downstairs with phone and dressing gown to check on dog.... To find her there and very happy to see me as she'd had a poo explosion and weed on her duvet. Noise had been her kicking her duvet up against the crate. So tidied all that up whilst stopping her running upstairs as she does in the morning to join us in bed. Persuaded her to go back to bed after a few tries, duvet in the washing machine ready for tomorrow...nothing I can do about the stink for now. Checked outside, van is gone. Watched back CCTV, no one near the house so I think just coincidence. But now I'm too wired for sleep for a while!

They wouldn't have advertised their presence with hazards on if they were up to no good.

Awake most of the night as stressed and worried, I don't sleep well at the best of times.

Colleague came to work while her DH was waiting for test results, she then started with symptoms that night so looking like I will have to isolate till Boxing Day.

My DF died in October very suddenly and my DM who is not coping was due to come to me for Christmas so she will have to be on her own. Also trying to work out how best to keep away from DH and DDs, we don't have a spare room and DH, although WFH, works really long hours

I also have had a banging headache since yesterday so worried that's the start of me getting it.

to everyone

My cat woke me up at 4.50am - she is on heat and desperate for a man!

I gave up and fed all the cats at 6am.

No doubt the teenager will be claiming the cat kept her awake all night and that will be today's excuse for being miserable.

I worked until 8 last night (from 8.45am). Just got downstairs and said hello to the kids when my big boss called - I’d got a detail wrong, so back to my desk to fix it and now I’m awake early worried that he thinks I’m crap and also I have no idea what the right answer is as I just got so muddled last night after 12 hours of hard brain work.

And I’m worrying about meeting my elderly parents (outside) for a Christmas walk. But they are sensible and understand the risks, and want to risk it.

Sending those of you with troubled thoughts heartfelt energy across the night skies to wherever you are in time and spare and hoping for better times for you all.

Thank you, that's really kind of you and I'm sending the same thoughts back to you.

Still in pain, nearly 12 hours now .
Sending best wishes to all in this thread, this is a horrible time for so many.
@TheoriginalLEM, I'm so sorry for your loss

@Sunbird24

I am so sorry so many of you are having such hard times. It is such a shitty time for so many.

Hoping for better times soon.

And please reach out for support. There is always someone around on here. Day or night. And one thing MN is good at is giving support. It’s easy to feel alone and that you are the only one struggling.

@ChristmasinJune did you know you can set screen time on an iPad? DD (not the toddler!) has become a much more pleasant person since I limited her to 1 hour a day and 2 at weekends and it won’t work early in the morning or late at night. No more sneaking it into bed or taking ages to get ready because she’s sneaking her iPad. I haven’t told DH the passcode as he’s too soft and will let her have extra time.

I'll look into that, thanks! They're very old versions so not sure if I still can?? It's worth a try though, got to be better than hiding them in the wardrobe!

I've just read through this whole thread and feeling a bit emotional about it. All of us awake in the early hours of yesterday for different reasons; and so many sad reasons .

Maybe it's the Tier 4 thing and the Christmas plans we've had to shelve, but tonight I'm just very grateful for a weird little online pajamaed sisterhood.

It does help to know that you aren't alone in the wee hours. So thanks for starting the thread.

Same again tonight, anyone got any good ideas for getting a non-sleepy brain to just go to sleep so that I can wake up at a normal time in the mornings and not spoil Christmas?

I had a three mile cycle ride up and down bloody hills today. Body refuses to be sensible and go to sleep!

Wise awake dressing and worrying about the new tier 4 restrictions

• stressing not dressing

Also awake and reading this thread. Have been struggling with insomnia since the death of my mum in October. I can't seem to let myself go to sleep. At first I was afraid to dream about her because it was just too painful and now I just find it hard to settle. I'm so tired most of the time but my brain won't switch off.

Tonight (this morning?) Covid and Brexit are adding to the mix. Too much to worry about. Sorry everyone is awake for whatever reason.

Was meant to finish NHS community shift at 11.30 but finished at 02.45.

Been in hospital with damaged pelvis. Trying not to take so many painkillers so am uncomfortable and also despite being on pilll keep getting period pains and spotting.

Oh and having a panic everyone will absolutely hate their birthday / Xmas presents next week.

Plus the whole covid shitshow abs home learning etc and worrying about not being enough to keep kids happy and learning.

Bet you wish you hadn't asked!

My daughter is singing twinkle twinkle on repeat 😩

I'm arguing with my boyfriend via what's app because he's decided to stay with his lodger Xmas day as he feels bad he's going to be alone otherwise, even though once my kids go to their dad's Xmas day, I'll be alone.
Feeling pretty shit. Drank too much wine, should sleep but can't as I'm so sad that I'm going to be alone from lunch on Xmas day and everyone I know has someone. Even his bloody lodger. Twat. Grr. Angry!

I'm back. Had a good night's sleep a couple of nights ago but otherwise up between 3-5 am all week.

I am worried about my sister who isn't coping well atm. She is v demanding so I have to be careful how much I engage but she is a worry.

Fell asleep on the sofa around 10pm for an hour and now my body has decided that was sufficient sleep for one night.