Just looking for a bit of a hand-hold and wondering if anyone else is in my position. This is the first holiday where there's been a court-ordered "share the holidays" applied. My God it hurts. I appreciate that My DCs need quality time with their father but I miss them so much! Doesn't help that my ex has been absolutely evil since we split (multiple reports to social services, damaging my property). We are more like parallel-parenting than co-parenting. Please tell me it gets easier??