God I’m so fucking depressed today. Come and join me for a whinge

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Ah I’m sick of this BS now. Sick of the kids pissing each other off. Sick of my dd3 fake cry when she wants to get her sister in trouble. Sick of the amount of fucking washing I have because both you get Dds get changed multiple times a day.

Sick of cleaning the same fucking area every day. Sick of visiting the same fucking parks, sick of having to pay a fortune to take the kids some where different. Sick of staying up really late just to claw back some precious alone time with out people talking at me.

I actually feel a smidge better after writing all that

@Bluepolkadots42 I'm exactly the same! Weight fell off in pregnancy and I've piled it on since the birth 8 months ago. Lockdown didn't help- I don't need much excuse to raid the biscuit tin under normal circumstances so I was only delighted to treat myself...... I must ne the only woman in the world who puts on weight while breastfeeding 😭

@bloodywhitecat I'm so sorry to hear that

@bloodywhitecat

We're going through a bit of a time at the moment, DP has had jaundice and his blood test results indicate cancer, he had an endoscope on Friday where a stent was placed which has really helped the jaundice but the consultant is still saying he has cancer and we have to expect the worst. Yesterday I had a really good day, I was convinced DP was a medical anomaly he didn't have cancer and he was going to live to a ripe old age but today I am convinced he does have it and we could be looking at our last Christmas together. If he does have cancer the 5 year survival rates are very poor and his cancer marker is already very high.

That’s shit. In these times; MEGA shit. I’m sorry x

@spiderlight There's nothing quite so stressful. It would be so much easier if they could talk and tell us 😞.

I've been crying all day. I'm so sick of being alone with no support from anyone, I just can't handle it anymore. I nearly called The Samaritans as I felt so awful and just wanted a human being to be kind to me. I bottled making the call.

I went out for dinner last night with the most fabulous, handsome man that I have completely fallen in love with. But I think he sees me as just a friend. I have no chance with him. He's 11 years younger and wants kids. I'm 50 so that isn't an option. He's out of my league, God knows why he spends time with me.

We went to a well known West End glamorous restaurant and I sat there opposite him feeling insecure and old. Then we walked home at midnight along the South Bank. It should have been a wonderful, romantic evening but I have spent all today crying. We have become close friends over the last few months but I can't cope being his friend any more as my feelings are too strong for him. It hurts too much. I want to run away but I know I have to at least tell him why. He finds it hard to make friends and I don't want to hurt him. But I am too embarrassed to tell him why I have to run away. I feel so unattractive and old, why on earth would I have ever thought I have a chance with him?! I'm an idiot and telling someone you're an idiot is just painful. Part of me can't bear to lose him but I feel so broken. And angry with myself for falling for him.

@bloodywhitecat oh gosh, so sorry to hear that. Poor you, wishing everything turns out ok. Keep strong x

Yep, furlough going on for ever and radio silence from work - which isn't particularly nice !

DD12 being an absolute nightmare and started to self harm due to bullying

Husband working 100000 hours a day and all parenting falls me.

Every day is the same - meet ups are being organised on WhatsApp group, but instigators of meet ups are frenemies , so am socially excluded - like other people in the group

Hundred - ouch! - I felt that. I think lockdown and the sense of time passing fruitlessly can magnify things horribly. I’ve been having strong feelings for someone as well and it’s never gonna happen.

If you want to offload to a real person then Samaritans are always there.

@bloodywhitecat I'm so so sorry. That is shit. Macmillan were brilliant when my dm had cancer, I would definitely call them if you need to, even at this early stage, the phone helpline is really good.

@HundredMilesAnHour Would you feel more comfortable emailing The Samaritans?

@namechangedschoolquery I almost called them the other day then felt a bit of a fraud as we don't have a definitive diagnosis yet.

to all having a crap time

This week has been a bit of an uphill struggle. Broken shower = water pouring through the he ceiling, broken dishwasher and flooded kitchen, broken boot lock on car, 2 x dick heads to deal with. Work crappiness amd uncertainly, DD is All about Mummy and keeps responding to everything with “whyyyyyy?”. Other family crap. OH is doing his absolute best and pulling his weight, but is working long hours. My nerves are on edge and I keep getting tearful. Ugh

Can I join you all please.

I miss my boys who are away with exH, DPs kids are here and his youngest told me my very existence makes her mummy cry every day so she can't ever like me (her parents were split before me but his ex isn't doing great). I fell off a crazy new swing earlier flashing my flabby arse to the park and grazing my elbow in the process. I am on a diet to shift said flabby arse but that isn't much fun either. I cooked for my 90 year old friend today and he was really sad so that rubbed off a bit too. Just today, a bit meh. Hugs to you all

@bloodywhitecat, I would call anyway. They are lovely. They have had a big campaign recently on cancer not being forgotten during Covid, they are concerned about diagnoses being delayed (I work for a similar organisation)

Even supposedly good news like pay rises from some people in the public sector could mean bad news for me. I'm also public sector, working in education, but I'm not a teacher so not getting the pay rise, plus at more risk of being made redundant as there won't be enough funding from current budgets to cover it.

Same @CurlyhairedAssassin. My role is fairly niche (and essential in normal times) so I'm not in immediate danger or redundancy, but I'm really worried about the effect of longer term budget cuts Having a definite date for the start of term is helping a lot right now though, as provided there's no spike in cases between now and September there's at least an end to the relentless isolation in sight. And I've never in my life been more grateful that I don't have small children - the parents on this thread deserve all of the

Mine is very minor but I'm still pissed. DS had a friend over today. DS is an only child so was so excited to actually have a friend to play with as he has barely seen other kids in months. Friend was a little shit. As soon as his mum left he refused to play with anything and insisted that he could only play on tech. DS tried so hard to get friend to play outside, with toys etc but the little brat just sulked until we turned the tech on. DS was almost in tears as he just wanted to do some real playing with another child. No pleases, no thank yous, no playing. Little shit.

Oh @bloodywhitecat - that's awful. So sorry you've had such devastating news.

@bloodywhitecat I second Macmillan even before a definite diagnosis. They will understand what you are going through and help you support DH.

For what it's worth I think the not knowing phase is the most stressful. It's all the uncertainty and your imagination runs riot. Give them a call. If it's not right for you can just say so, thank them and hang up. They will understand. Look after you too.

Whoever said Groundhog Day has it in one.

Its the monotony of it all,im just so pissed off.

And a second lockdown is probably going to happen.

I have communion and confirmation being pushed on us by the school.We have no money for anything.

I just want a bit of peace.

DH is filling in job app form - it's the longest form ever. I'm willing him to get it & he's stressed because it's the only job going and if he doesn't get it we don't have a plan B. And it's crap going for jobs when you're old!
Ok, calm now.

I'm so fucking bored.
Worked (in school) throughout the lockdown and the stress kept me going. Now I'm actually on holiday and can't go anywhere, do anything. 5 adults in the house and everytime I turn round the washing machine is full, ditto dishwasher (on the rare occasion the crockery isn't dumped somewhere nearish)
The dog hurt her leg and Petplan are umming over whether to cover the £800 bill.. plus SHE'S bored as has been confined to short walks.
I want a new job but the only ones coming up are care jobs and I have been caring (for own son with special needs and at my SN school) for 15 years.. I want a change..and a decent income!
My DS1 is stuck on the other side of the planet with no prospect of coming back, my DD2 was due to get married in 2 months....
Yesterday I had a bit of a sob fest because I miss DS1 so very much and I happened to rewatch a video of him at one of his gigs (muscian).

Phew , whinge over...

@StillMedusa Did you post about your son moving away a while ago?

I've woke up feeling hugely fed up today, bloody weather is depressing and it feels like the year is just flying by, the thought of winter arriving is too much.

@bettybyebye that truly does suck. You poor poor thing.

I also look like a fat tramp, and DS1 played cricket yesterday and all the other mums looked like models. Ffs.

@bloodywhitecat I'm so sorry. That really is tough. 

@HundredMilesAnHour I think you should tell him how you feel. You might be surprised.

I'm normally quite sunny TBH, but this morning I'm just a leetle bit hungover and bored.

I've been signed off work for the past 2 weeks with a slipped disc. I'm a very bad patient and now I'm not off my tits on tramadol, am lamenting my lack of ability to do stuff (as well as DH's ability to do stuff, coupled with his great dislike of actually doing stuff)

As a result of my exceptional consumption of tramadol, my guts are extremely unhappy. As a lifelong sufferer of IBS I am used to a certain degree of unpredictability, so both me and my bowels are somewhat startled to suffer from extreme constipation

DS is awaiting GCSE results. They should be fine but (understandably) he's anxious until he has them in his hand. His summer has been unrelentingly shit and I feel so bad for him, though he seems by and large to be coping well. However if I never hear another guitar riff from him I suppose in time I would be sad, at the moment I would give all the tea in China!

Like so many others, we have had two holidays and an expedition cancelled. We're fortunate that we haven't lost any money, but I am bitter nonetheless.

I also stood on my phone again last night. It's only the screen protector that's broken and it's got a lifetime guarantee, but still I'm seething at the inconvenience of it all.

HOWEVER....
To counter my above whining, I am having a haircut tomorrow. I am certain that all my woes will be fixed when I look stunning and groomed again and I am almost delirious with excitement.

We also adopted a cat last week. She has turned out to be the most affectionate and funny little creature and we are all besotted ❤️

to you all

I’m joining in with the Groundhog Day feeling. My house is a mess, my DC are bored and whining. I cannot be bothered to do anything. All their favourite activities (swimming, soft play, going out to places) are either off limits or really hard work. All the boring jobs (haircuts, new school shoes) are more of a faff and PITA than ever. Ugh.

They need me to be extra perky and imaginative and come up with fun things to do and have the energy to take them places despite the difficulties. And I just don’t, I’m done, we’ve all had ages of this and I’m tired.