I feel similar, Mascotte. I am taking mask-wearing very seriously in my clinical work, & I wear one outside of work if I have to. I'm in no way complacent about covid.
But I just can't get my head around this specific disease being dangerous enough to warrant the protracted destruction of a joyful life.
My friend started talking about healthy young people dying of covid yesterday, and therefore masks were necessary etc - I know she's anxious- and yes, it's tragic, but so is a healthy young person dying of anything.
Maybe I have seen too many people's lives changed forever by other diseases? Perhaps the fear around covid is so strong because you can catch it from another person? You can't catch injuries from an accident, you can't catch a stroke. It doesn't make them less devastating.