Lost my purpose

[Ladywinesalot]

I’m struggling today.
I feel work gave me a good purpose to life and was a great distraction to anxiety and a bad family relationships.

I feel so alone.

I don’t know what the purpose to life is.

I don't know what the purpose is either but we're here and living. I'm sorry you feel alone. Have you been furloughed or are you isolating/ shielding? Your circumstances kind of decide what you can do instead of work.

I’m self employed, with DH at work and dc at home with me.

I’m not close with my parents and it’s really playing on my mind today.
Everyone I k ow has a close relationship with their parents, and I have awful one.

I’m lucky to have good friends but I can’t call them all the time as they are trying to cope too.

I’m feeling like my place in this world doesn’t matter. I’m so disliked and hated, I can’t see a light at the end.

I’m sorry for such a self pitying post, I’ve been crying for the past hour hiding away from my family so not to upset them.

You know, I've had a similar day. And it doesn't help that my four year old said she doesn't want to live with us anymore... But hey, not every day is the same. So let's hope this is over soon! And please speak to your family, tell them how you feel

I think some days you just need to have that cry. You have your DH and children and they are your family. Your purpose appears to be right there at home with you. Everything in other people's gardens isn't always as rosy at it may appear. Try not to think about the poor relationships right now- this isn't the time to deal with them. I know that is easier said than done.