@Marcipex
I pulled the 5 of cups, what I think of as the hangover or "the fear" card (as in hangover blues, embarrassment and shame "the fear"), but reversed, which indicates letting go off negative emotions and moving on, which as it's in the past position to, you've probably done (maybe long ago, but also perhaps fairly recently).
In the present position I pulled the high priestess reversed, which represents feeling unfufilled in a spiritual way, feeling shut out, or kept in the dark (possibly including secrets and deception), or could simply be a sign you aren't listening to your intuition.
In the future position the devil (who represents vices and putting pleasure first, lack of self control etc). Sometimes it's good abd healthy to let your hair down, but we have to be careful we don't hurt others, go overboard or become addicted.