It's not like I didn't know it was coming.. I helped him apply for a couple's visa (verrry expensive, very complicated) and I absolutely love his fiancee who lived with us for two years and feels like my own daughter.
He actually met his soulmate.. how many of us can say that?
But... my son, my lovely, funny, talented musician, kind (works with me in a special needs school) oldest son, is leaving.
Tomorrow our school will do a leaver's assembly for him..he is rightly a very popular member of staff as he is fab with the children who adore him... school has done a collection for him and is sending him off with Australian dollars and he has to send a photo to show he has taken his fiancee out for a meal with them 
(she worked at our school too!)
I've managed to sort of ignore the fact that he's really going, but tomorrow I am going to find it hard to not cry...at work!
I will see him off at Heathrow with a smile and a promise that if he needs me I will be there. He's 26 and perfectly capable of moving to the other side of the world to be with the woman he loves.
But he's MY baby. The boy who gave me hell as a teen and yet turned into the best man I could hope for and it breaks my heart that he will be so far away.
I will never say that to him... I will send him with a smile and a last hug, but it will be at least a year before I can get out there to see him again.
Hold my hand...