I have one long standing friend of over 20 years. She lives 200 miles from me and we see each other around once a year but message each other all the time. She is the only person that I know who I would consider to be a true, genuine, trustworthy friend.
Since my ds started school I have made friends with a small group of mums and we have socialised together many times. We share a lot of information, usually under the influence of several vinos, but I don’t feel that they are entirely trustworthy. Around here everybody knows everybody and there is a lot of gossip. I feel like I can’t really trust these other mums and yet the way they act is as if we’re all super close and trustworthy. I know this not to be the case.
The long & short of it is that I feel very alone -and just wondered if it is normal at the age of 45 to feel non trusting of anyone and reluctant to make friends with any more ‘school friends’. Why can’t I find a friend that I can trust and be open & honest with?