I've just turned thirty. I've got a healthy three year old DS. I've got a husband who I love and who loves me. We own our property. We earn a good wage between us. I have an extremely flexible job where I work from home.
I don't feel happy. I don't feel fulfilled. I started out in an admin job when I left uni and I'm now working as an operations manager so basically just a higher level admin job. I enjoy some parts of it, it pays the bills and allows me to be around for DS but it's not very interesting and it's certainly not what I thought I would end up doing - I feel a bit like I got stuck down a certain path.
I have really dreadful anxiety that I feel has held me back, it stopped me travelling when I was younger and still stops me now (utterly terrified of flying, yes I know it's irrational, yes I've done that BA fear of flying course). It also means that I feel very strongly that if I talk about how I feel, then something bad will happen to teach me a lesson because I should be grateful for what I have.
I know how much worse so many other people have it and I just feel like a fucking fraud, feeling dissatisfied with my life when I have so much.
Has anyone else felt like this and how were you able to overcome it?