Is this anxiety?

[ssd]

Am sitting on the couch watching telly, showered should be relaxing, heart is hammering away and I just feel agitated
I'm used to being busy and watching TV on a Saturday night with dh just feels boring and sad, not cosy and relaxed

What the hell wrong with me?

Yes could well be. I certainly can feel very agitated when my anxiety flares up. Really restless.

Is there something worrying you or playing on your mind?

Yes, actually. I'm looking for a new job and I've got an interview next week for a job I don't actually want, I applied as I'm applying for everything I see just now and I didn't think I'd get anywhere . Then I get an interview the very next day. Am actually shittting myself and don't want to go. I don't want the job. But I feel I should go for experience although really no one else gives a fuck.
Am worried about it all and feel utter dread at it all.

That would explain it. Sounds a turbulent time. I'm facing imminent job insecurity and it really wrecks havoc with my mental health.

Take care of yourself

Thank you