It's 5.45 am and I'm sitting in the waiting room of my closest train station here in the NW, heading towards an event in the surroundings of London.
It's something I have taken part to over the last 3-4 years and enjoyed, but always been there driving and with DH. Last year we had the addition of my DS too, and it was a complete disaster - the house got flooded in our absence due to a leak, DS got bronchiolitis due to the freezing cold and snow that plagued London, and DH fell ill and was transported to the local hospital with the ambulance.
This year they have encouraged me to go alone and I left them safe and sound asleep at home, but I am shaking - terrified that something might happen in my absence, to get lost, to miss connections (I have 7 minutes to change train in a station I have never seen ). I can't help thinking I've been selfish and crazy to decide to go on my own. I'm playing with my car keys thinking about coming back home! Please tell me something 