What one thing would people never guess about you?

[Thisisit777]

Me - I was shy at school and rarely talked.

You?

I’m really attracted to my BIL. But I’ll never act on it. I’m lucky to have a wonderful DH myself and would never...

My dsis is very self centred, has been like that all her life. It’s all about her work, kids, shopping. BIL is just great, successful, kind, deserves so much better. I think he’ll wake up to that when their child leaves home in the coming months.

I’m crippled by insecurity, self doubt and an inferiority complex so much so that I actively avoid people such as people from school, uni and ex colleagues.

I desperately want a child. I’m reasonably young (nearing mid 20’s) and chronicly single and terrified it won’t happen for me. I cry about it at night.

No one would guess these things about me. To them I’m a pretty confident on my way to being successful ‘career’ woman.

I was sexually abused by my step dad, had a boyfriend who hit me and cheated on me constantly. Incidentally, my go-to porn choices reflect this.

I was thin and a did dance for several hours per week at 17.

I have a brown belt in Jujitsu.

I hate myself most of the time for no longer being fit, healthy and thin.

I sometimes fantasize about having wings.

I have a tattoo. I am come from a very reserved family. I'm the only one with a tattoo. It's not even a very lady like tattoo either (When I got it done I was so quiet I wouldn't say boo to a goose), but I still love it after all these years.

Soontobe60 - I was you, and eventually shared with just a few close family and friends. This year I have had two large operations and am through the other side now. Be strong - you need to talk to someone you can trust 💐

My work colleagues would be really, really shocked if they knew how bad my mental health is. They all know I've got OCD but I'm pretty sure the reality of it (midnight hysteria/panic attacks that last hours with a pretty desperate other half by my side) would shock the shit out of them.

That I binge read trashy romance novels. For every serious grown up book that I read I allow myself 5 Mills and Boon type books.

That I still cosleep with my 5 year old.

I get immense joy from eating food with my hands. I have excellent table manners and insist my dc use cutlery, sit at the table nicely, etc but on the rare occasion I'm home alone then I'll eat my dinner by scooping it up with my fingers - pasta with fresh pesto is messy but my top non cutlery treat.

No one knows that I contemplate leaving the home, husband and four children and not ever returning.

No one knows that I contemplate suicide.

Love this tread.

I am an alcoholic is recovery, 13 months sober.

I didnt really have friends in primary school and was bullied.

I have a constant chatter in my head where i try to convince myself that
i am enough.

Abigbraclet - why do you feel so low? I not asking for you to reply here, but for you to ask yourself this and why. Have you sought help? Please do so, today if possible. Call someone and talk. You took a big step posting here. Now try to take the next step. A lot of us on here will understand feeling low and worthess. But you are not worthless, you are very much valued. Sending you a hand to hold and hugs.

Bluesheep8 nobody you would have heard of but did pub and student union gigs.

My mum was a functioning alcoholic until way past me leaving home. I would know the moment she opened her mouth, even on the phone. Dreaded the days she had to collect me from school... it's better now (my Dad retired) Nobody knows (except obviously my dad and sister), not even DH, though I came quite close to telling occasionally. We live 600 miles away so we only see eachother twice a year.

The other not quite so secret and is like @MyBreadIsEggy : I'm fluent in three languages and English was my third. You can't tell from my accent where I come from.

cheeses you have taken the first step 💐💐
Go and see your GP or a counsellor - keep talking.

Some of these things have made me cry.

That I was a heroin and crack addict, I was held by a man and made to work as a prostitute for a long time, that I survived him trying to kill me with a crow bar.
These days I'm very boring and don't even drink.

Pixel99 - too much to mention. 14 years of swallowing down hurt, anger, worry. I can't seem to manage to keep it all down like I'm used to doing .
I think i need to remive myself from the picture. Maybe self check in to a mental facility. I've no one else in the world to go to.

I was horribly bullied at school and had suicidal thoughts.

I still find it hard to trust people and am very independent, also have huge social anxiety which I hide well.

I saw a ghost when I was 5 years old & it still petrifies me to think of it. I slept holding the covers over my head for many many years & still am scared of the dark.

My parents were both alcoholics & kicked me out when I was 16. I lived in various hostels & B&B's which were not nice places. I suffered a lot of abuse & developed my own drink problem during this time. On a rare visit to one place my mother loudly said "I wouldn't let my cat live here". But she let me.

That I contemplate suicide regularly , I know how and where I’d do this.

That I discovered my husband was bisexual

When I'm on a good day no one would know I have a chronic illness (ME) and spend my life just about surviving. I grieve every day for the life I had previously and sometimes don't know how I'll live like this for the rest of my life but I have faith it will one day get better

Sometimes I fantasize about running away, somewhere no one knows me and just starting again. Cutting ties with everyone who knows me. I have a wonderful partner and amazing kids I have no idea why I feel like that sometimes (but it doesn't matter as I wouldn't have the energy anyway 😂)

That I married a man with dwarfism. My husband lives a normal life in spite of his physical disability.

That I cried myself to sleep last night.
That there is a part of me that wants to pack my bags, change my name and disappear completely.

That the hatred towards my family is growing by the day.

That I love heavy metal music. A few months ago,when someone was asked to guess my taste in music,they said Cliff Richard and Ed Sheeran,which is the complete opposite of what I actually like.

NC for this.

That i can sing.

That I cry EVERY day and not happy tears.

I’ve a couple of other things but don’t want the hate that I would get if I said what they are. I hate myself enough without reading the horrible things that people would say.

That I ended a pregnancy 23 years ago and have regretted it every day since. I am also with the same partner.

I'm still a virgin [and nearly 48]. I don't advertise the fact but I don't hide it either. On the off chance someone should enquire about my sexual adventures, I wouldn't have any difficulty admitting there had been none.