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Thanks for reminder Becca rushes to get first pick of comfy sheltered branch !!!
Settles in with fleecy blankets etc !

Oh lovely they can take weeks to work fully and that can be a very hard time. I think you need to go speak to your doctor again and get an emergency appointment and say what you've said here.

I know it'll sound trite and probably not help but you are very well thought of here and in the barn. You bought us both together don't forget and I know the barn love having me around. I help stop any cake from going off and poisoning others and that's all because of you

It'll get better. Please try and see your doctor though just in case they aren't the right tablets for you there might be something else they can offer you that may help.

Ill see the doctor. Todays events haven't helped to be fair.
The senco phoned and said she wants to be involved with DS2.
He is struggling to make friends in nursery. He doesnt join in with the others and he sits alone most of the time. He is also very defiant and just refuses to do things.

Well hopefully they can help put something in place to help him, try and see it as a good thing, I know that's hard when you're feeling so down and overwhelmed.

I really need to get an early night, hopefully someone else will be along to help support you tonight.

Fatty you can get through this, I know you can. First thing tomorrow phone doc, if they say no apt's insist on it. You do want to live, but not as things are at the moment. Personally I think you need big changes in your life. You work too hard without a lot of help. This needs to change. Then maybe you could cut your hours for a while. This would free up some of your time and the kids would see more of you, which in turn may help them too. I know it's easy for me to say, but looking in you are def loosing your old self under a load of stress. It can't continue. X 💐

Depression first, then when feeling stronger look at any possible changes. Do not try and do both, at least don't attempt it without a lot of support in place in real life. I don't think you'll manage both.

Yet again I ruined my early night by saying I was having one. My blood sugar is too high for me to risk sleep... So instead I'm going to officially say im staying up all night...

Becca Fatty has been through a lot of stress even in just the past couple of weeks, working a lot of hours a week, coming home and doing housework and then cooking for herself and three children. it's not possible to keep up under that level of stress, so I say until she has lessened her work load, the stress etc will be the same. But I agree she needs support and needs to see her doc.

Yes I know I have read her posts here and in the barn. I didn't comment because I didn't have anything to say. I simply meant she needs to sort out meds and more real life support first before the other things.

The way I see it is Things like work hours she may not be able to change without effecting her ability to stay in work. Cooking/housework unfortunately her "D"P seemingly won't help with but does help with childcare so she can work. If he was gone she'd need to find someone else to look after the children, and still need to do cooking/housework unfortunately a lot easier said than done and could result in loss of work which would be a shame.

In order to even begin to start looking at all of that she'll need to sort out meds and other means of support.

Basically we both want the same for her, but would go about it differently. I wasn't suggesting she got rid of her DP. But ultimately it is Fatty,s life and she will do as she thinks is best for her and her family. All we have to do is support her and her choices. We will have to agree to differ Becca.

Of course. I'm not explaining myself very well I know!

Fatty I hope you’ve managed to see a doctor. It’s horroble to think of you feeling like you do.

I might be wrong but I thought sometimes anti depressants can make you feel worse as a side effect before they help, maybe that’s what your experiencing? Are you under 25? (I can’t remember sorry) as the nhs website seems to suggest people under 25 maybe more likely to feel suicidal or like self harming when first taking the pills.

First step is to sort the right medication from the GP, and then when your a bit stronger you look at changing things within your life.

It’s not surprising you feel like you do currently. Your worried about your DS2, your dd is suffering, you’ve got a useless partner, you also had to have a termination, and it doesn’t sound like you have any family support as such. Let’s face it life is crap for you right now and it’s a lot to have on your shoulders dealing with pretty much alone but it’s great you can see in the fog, know your not right and was able to seek help.

Yes you deserve better than your partner. Much more to being a parent than watching the dc that he fathered while you work your arse off to pay the bills. Unfortunately life isn’t that simple but his a lazy, selfish bastard. He must see you struggling and has he upped his game and stepped up, no he hasn’t its still all on you. That’s not how a relationship should work

I couldn't get through to the doctors so will try again monday.

My mum came down today and went mad at DP.

I hope that means good news for you. Good luck for Monday.

Hope you have better luck on Monday Fatty hope today has been more bearable for you 💐

Im alright. Still just pottering along, surviving the best i can.
DP has been told he needs to sort his shit out and grow the fuck up, or get out.
I can't live like this anymore. So we shall see.

He just needs to shape up and be more supportive for you. If he wants a family life he has to do it. You can't do it all. Must be tough at the moment for you, but I'm sure it will get better one way or another. I hope so Fatty especially when you got your job and did all the training to make family life better ! I agree he has to get his self sorted and grow up, he is a dad of three not a teenager. 💐

Hope you are ok Fatty as the song goes " things can only get better "
Take care of yourself.

Hello Owls

Hope your all ok, especially you Fatty

When did 1 class class stamps get so expensive? Had to buy some today admittedly for large letters, and they were £1:06 each. I had to check the price before paying thought I was hearing things.

Been a nice weather day here, so I’m out in the garden with the dc and Pinkrabbit. We’ve got the slide and mini swing out of the shed now

They went up yesterday pink !

I had to report a shop assistant today and I'm regretting it. This woman, I've no idea who she is, literally a stranger who likes to hurl abuse at me for my hygiene issues whenever she sees me and telling me I disgust her (amongst other things) decided to come up to me in the shop in front of others and go "urgh you're disgusting" and walk off complaining about people like me being allowed in "her" shop. No it wasn't major but yeh it hurt. Spoke to a manager who said she was out of order (not the first time she's done it loads when she sees me but it's the first time she's come up to me in her place of work and done it - I avoid her if I see her so she needs to actually target me, it's happened when ive been there at closing time and she's been on the door with someone else and she's making yukky noises and comments) he knew exactly who I meant though so I wonder if she's done it to others. He did say they've homeless people who go in there all the time who really stink and there's no way he'd be accepting of her doing things like that to them never mind me and he appreciated it's not easy when disabled.

But when waiting for a taxi later to go home she really let rip at me for being unfair shouting about not being neuro typical and who the hell did I think I was walking around lazy and stinking and making people ill and thinking I could get people like her fired.

So now I wonder if I did the right thing reporting her. Have I just made the shit she puts me through even worse???

I think you were right to report her, all the time she’s at work she is representing a company, she is an employee and she should behave in a certain way while representing that company. Well she would be a decent person anyway but you can’t be a bitch when someone is paying you to represent them.

So what if you or others that use the shop do have hygiene issues, without your money the company wouldn’t survive and she might find herself unemployed. It effects her for a few minutes while you are in the shop, surely she could find a bit of understanding for a few minutes

Hi all. Fatty how are you getting on ?
No baby yet. Seems he is back to back like last one and although she wanted to try a normal delivery it seems she will have a section - - - but not until April 5th which by that time she will be 42 weeks. She is really fed up as last week they told her they were going to start her off with this balloon thing ( foley bulb ) but now another doc has vetoed this. The only good thing is that her little boy will have a few more days of being the " only " . So the waiting goes on.

Morning owls

Hope your all ok.

Lin I don’t envy her going to 42 weeks, all my dc were early! But she’s only a few days to wait, unless she goes in to labour on her own before then

It’s a lovely day here so I’m taking the dc to the zoo with my friend and her dc

Evening owls

Had a lovely mother’s day ☺️ Mil come round for the day too and dh done a home made afternoon tea type thing for us both at lunch time it was lovely and as the weather has been good we had it out in the garden. Done some craft thing with the dc tho afternoon, some hand & feet painting.

All the dc are asleep now so me and mil are drinking gin ( candy floss flavour) waiting for dh to serve up our dinner, roast chicken & cauliflower cheese my favourite!

Hope your all ok