I'm a bit nasty

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name changed obvs. I think I'm a bit nasty and lack empathy. I don't really seem to stay in touch with people as everyone annoys me
I stopped seeing one friend because she moaned non stop for 2 years about her child. Maybe I should have been more supportive but it was so boring
My FIL calls round at least twice a week and moans on about his health or his other kids or his house. I just find it boring and don't care. I've taken to ignoring the door at times
I'm horrible

I don't think I'm a very nice person sometimes either. For example if I hear about something bad that's happened to someone else my main thought is usually about how this will affect me and feeling bad about that rather than feeling bad for the person.

For example if somebody else's illness inconveniences me, that will irritate me when I know what I should be feeling is sympathy for their suffering, they're the one who's ill. I don't like myself for it at all. Of course I try not to let it show.

I know I have it in me to be kind and thoughtful but I do sometimes wonder if there is something wrong with my ability to empathise. I once got absolutely destroyed on AIBU for being a selfish, heartless monster. I won't describe the circumstances as I don't want to be laid into again but to be honest it wasn't that unfair, perhaps a bit exaggerated but basically yeah I was being awful. Though to my credit I hadn't actually DONE or SAID anything objectionable, merely thought it.

Bit too early in the week for yet but and is just the ticket. I have also been mistaken for a therapist in the past. Be warned, I don't do small talk either. Literature, science fiction and current affairs tend to feature heavily. But not at 3 am not since uni anyway

I'm like you OP but I'm older than you by quite a way. I just can't be bothered with people now. You really do find out who your friends are when things go wrong in life and my 'friends' disappeared from mine so now, I think fuck it.

I do wonder about those who say they have a lot of friends. I wonder because of what I've written above. I hope that if something goes wrong people really do rally round.

*people will rally round.

Are you autistic?

no not autistic

Not autistic, just honest. (Although I am hearing impaired which does make random socialising hard work.)

Nah you're not nasty you're probably exhausted, over 35, a mum or all 3.
In my younger years, i was everybody's wailing wall.
Yet if i had an issue was there anyone listening? Nah.
So i cut off those types.
I was the person who strangers would moan to on the bus.
Now i have a fab bitch face so don't get bothered.
If anyone did i would walk away, no need to explain.
At work i nod along but i find other's lives very complicated and can't be arsed to keep up. My life is confusing enough.
I like being on my own.

I'm 27 pregnant with my 2nd