Something happened to me when i was 11 years old and I've always wondered if I was anally raped or not... So here goes,
When I was 11 years old my Brothers had their mates round they were drinking smoking weed, they werent drunk to much so they knew what they were doing, then an hour or 2 later one of my brothers and 4 of his mates went out leaving the other mate to look after me as my other brother was listening to music, he didn't hear anything.. I was sat on the sofa watching TV eating chocolate crips and sweets! I'M GOING TO CALL HIM BEN TO PROTECT HIS IDENTITY! Then Ben came and sat next to me and asked me if he could kiss me, I said NO and got up to go and play in my bedroom, 5 minutes later I heard my door shut I turned around and saw him I stood up and he asked if we could have sex, I again said NO so I turned around and began to play again he then pulled me up and pulled my pants and underwear down then he pulled his down to and shoved his penis into me anally it went on for 10 minutes though it seemed like forever, he then pulled out pulled his pants up and left, Ii pulled my pants up and cried. I can't remember how long after I told my friend but she told her friend who was Bens cousin, it was a few days after that, that she told his mum and his mum told my mum and they all called me a liar because he had looked after me before and nothing like that had happened. I still remember everything till this day, 8 years later, I didn't go to the police or get counselling as my mum didn't think I needed it.
I don't know what to do please do anyone have any suggestions it's killing me.
SORRY FOR ANY SPELLING MISTAKES AND IT'S NOT IN FULL DETAIL.