I really need help. Back in November while my Dad was in hospital from his 2nd stroke I found out he had been looking at children on the Internet. It makes me sick to my stomach and I have gone through every emotion since.
I took his laptop when I left from visiting him for the weekend and went straight to the police after getting DH to look at his history.
12yo girl and sex etc. I was in turmoil, my whole life in question. My Dad who I adored, how could he do this?
I asked him over the phone as we live 200 miles from each other a week later and he admitted to it. I hung up and have ignored his calls since.
Christmas and New year were awful but I have 3 kids (all be it older g24, b21 & g15) that I wanted to have a normal time.
They all know and are devastated. dd24 doesn't want him at her wedding later on in the year.
I have a couple of best friends who this has stirred up some demons of their own and have been a massive support.
I've just had this week off as a long term depression sufferer I can feel my self slipping. I wanted to go see him today but got an hour away and I flipped and couldn't do it so DH turned round and we came home. I feel relieved but still I need to either see and forgive/help or cut all ties.
The police have been a massive support and can't do anything as he is ill still in hospital. They got a warrant and took all other computers etc and called me to say that it was on them too. I asked if it was going back before his 1st stroke and it was for a long while.
He's my Dad but it's so wrong on every level. Those poor poor children.
I just don't know where to go from here 😪 I'm lost and broken.