I used to be a prostitute AMA

[AMAnamechange28]

Name changed for this obviously. AMA

@AMAnamechange28
I commend you for your bravery and honesty and I wish you peace and happiness

You poor thing. What a terrible set of circimstances.

How much did you earn lap dancing? I've saw a lot of documentaries on that and I've saw women with bin bags full of cash! Ur a very brave woman OP

I never really had a Richard Gere rescue fantasy. Neither did any of the women I worked with, we had such distain for men.

I never really felt like I could say no. We were advertised on the website as doing certain services/things we wouldn't do but men would always push the boundaries and I would be too scared to say no. Common example, I advertised as OW (oral with condom) but the men would always say oh just do it without, everyone else does, it's no big deal, of you dont I wont pay you...one man physically forced me to. A other example, one man booked me.for 12 hours and on about hour 10 when I didnt want to have sex any more as I was in pain, I told him this but he kept cojoling me, ouldnt let me out of the room, I fell asleep (was b drunk) and woke up to him doing it any way. I guess I could have said no more firmly but I just didnt feel that I could at the time.

I would say to any 17 old girl (and any one of any age) NOT to do it, that they are worth so much more. Sometimes I see teenage girls out and about and they look so young and silly and I nearly start crying thinking of how innocent they are!

Did you ever go to the police about your childhood abuse or share it with family members?

Breaks my heart reading some of your posts, OP.

But you're so strong! Amazing that you've come through what you've experienced from such a young age to get to where you are now.

You woke up to him having sex with you? Gosh. I know they paid you for this but imagine having to be that much of a low life that’s how they treat you.
You are worth so much more than these men ever will be, you’ve changed, they’ll never be able to.

‘ but imagine having to be that much of a low life that’s how they treat you.‘

To clarify, they are the low lives of this sentence and not you!

This is just awful, OP. I'm so sorry it happened to you, and for the women who are still in this position.

So glad that you are far away from this now, you sound like a strong young woman, wishing you happiness for the future OP.

Yes went to the police about child abuse when I was 14. There were 2 other victims from different families so he was convicted but got a suspended sentence as he was only 17. In answer to earlier questions, I didnt go to the police about the customer who tried to kill me. It didnt even cross my mind, and I know for sure they would have not given a shit.

I'm signing off now as I think I've reached my limit. Thankyou to everyone that has reached out with messages of support. It has been truly incredible to share these things and been met with such warmth and acceptance. I know that I will save this thread and come back to it when I need reassurance that I am on the right path. I often beat myself up for still struggling and not being where I want to be in life, but all of your messages have reminded me that I'm.a survivor and am doing a great job so to be kind to myself! Thank you again, what a fab bunch of women mumsnetters are!

No questions from me OP. Just hugs for you. The world we live in is so shit, it makes me sad. All I can say is I wish you ongoing strength for your recovery and I sincerely hope you find peace and happiness. You deserve it.

I think the reason I was able to do it was because I'd been sexually abused when I was younger and didn't see my body as important, I didnt really care what happened to me.

Can I ask you OP that of couse is an awfull thing to happen to any girl or child. Did you before getting involved with the "oldest profession" get or seek any help with the abuse first?, and can you say who that was ie friend, family member, stranger?.

OP my good friend has started a campaigning organisation called Nordic Model Now, and I am absolutely sure they would love to hear from you, and perhaps it would help you to be part of this campaign. I will post a link in a mo

nordicmodelnow.org/

Thank you so much for sharing your story OP. What you have to say is so important. Please take care and I hope that you're able to get some resolution in the future. Wishing you all the best.

Eye-opening... thank you OP, and all the best for a bright future. Brave of you.

Just wanted to send you a hug. Well done for surviving! You did what many others can’t do. Well done for opening up here. You sound very strong and very self aware and articulate. It’s not been an easy road but you have survived.

What a brave young lady to share your experiences so glad to hear you are out!! I wish you continuing strength and happiness 💐

I'm grateful to you for this thread, OP. And yes: you're on the right path. All best wishes to you going forward, which I'm sure you will.

I wish you peace and happiness OP X

The best of luck in the future, OP, and I hope you manage to work things out with your new man.

Thank you so much for sharing, OP

Take care, op

Thank you for your honesty @naamechange28